I'm so good at writting

Yet I can't make you feel what I want you to feel
I wonder many things
For a second I thought I wanted many things maybe a forever deal everything is certain except my forever
I can feel your words in my brain telling me to be brave and do it just get it over with everyday there's a small reminder that I should do it and 20 other voices telling me not to is so hard having someone to live for
The voice that matters the most is silent but how can I interpret silence what does it means I am not leaving as long as I have a goal and my goal is to see everyone happy and not dependant on me once it is acomplished I will do it