I need to move on

For the sake of my mental sanity I need to move on and forget everything that bounded me to who I was, I need to be a new person, someone better, someone everybody likes, if I´m good people plays with me, if I am a bitch people talk about me, either way noone will ever know the true me, not even my closest friends know the real me, only one person knows me completely and I wish he never did, he knows how to hurt me, he knows exactly what buttons to push, and I am tired of beeing vulnerable, I am tired. Today after the worse incident ever I went to a friend´s house, we had the best talk ever I felt bad about all the missunderstandings from the past, I know our frienship is for real, and for that I am really thankful