Bumps on my dough!

That's how I can define my life at the moment, poor dad he is in so much pain I wonder how is is right now because since I stayed with him on the hopsital yesterday I got to come home to sleep tonight, I will sleep when I finish this post I am sooo damn sleppy, I have to admit since this thing of my dad happened I can see who are my real friends a.k.a the ones who care and that will be only 3 and those 3 already know who they are p.s if you have no clue on what I am talking about that means you areoviously not included on those 3, well I won't judge I mean usually I'm the last one to know things.
With all this stuff going on I haven't got any time to read any of the books I downloaded, I put this picture up first cuz I'm super proud of myself I got this headscarf together although is not like an actualy headscarf. Second because I am getting mixed reactions, today my mom was so angry because I told her of the headscarf she thinks that's like humilliating for a woman but I find it good I mean for me is respect to god and apreciation of the beautiful body he gave to me.
Noone got my into this I didn't even knew my ex when I learned about islam but now everyone thinks I am beeing brainwashed.
Speaking of (Ahmed) the last conversation we had was a total failure, we will never get back together, I finally see his true colors and I think I finally get why we are not together it was the best for me.
Now I don't want to go to school is like pffft so boring but just this week and then freedom for 2 weeks my goal is to know how to pray in those 2 weeks.
Today the weirdest thing happened a guy came to ask us for money because supposely he got beaten and shit I got paranoid and remembered "A clockwork orange" Now I can't sleep tho Iam tired as I've never been before I just keep imagining someone comes in is like what can we do in that care well... nothing just hope for the police come really quick because we have an alarm system damn i want to listen to system of a down ( totally random)
No matter how much of a good girl I am trying to be I still have some defects and that will be GUYS I can't stop looking I wonder if that is wrong I bet it is, I am listening to like weird music I got beacause one of my cousins and I went to see infected mushroom as mentioned in previoud notes and I really really liked one of the guys that were playing that would be skazi and first I like his music I don't know why and second because he is cute in a "look at me I look like a psyco kind of way.

I adoreee ADORE the msn song hahaha I always get like 0.o? when I heart it

P.S Nigga is growning so much I love him he is the best chia pet ever!