Demasiado de pro

I can't sleep I am super nervous about the photoshoot tomorrow so far only tragedies have occured I hope I will do well
I got into a dissagrement with a friend because of the photoshoot, she was going to bemy model and canceled because of some class and ruining her perfect score, I don't get how people can be so selfish sometimes while I do everything for my friends they never do anything for me and OMG I'm soooo delayed in my work thanks to ahmed and our baby and all the drama behind the photoshoots
I am currently watching "Girls of the playboy manssion" I know H-A-R-A-M don't even start on that one, what's so funny is that my friend who is teaching me keep saying no to everything I like and I'm not pissed but he seems to say it only to make me angry or give up, I just won't back down.
On the haram stuff allah knows I haven't been good on many aspects what can I do my heart is so full of love waiting for the right person but how many times can I be wrong, aparently a lot. Don't even get me started on the freaks I've met

I think is better if I go to sleep or at least be in my bed

I spoke to ahmed all day
we talk about many things and
I got to see out baby clica