reading in the dark

So as I stay home for the endless pig flu this is only the second day of our 1 week quarantine and people are starting to get really crazy thinking it's a weird evil plan over the goverment to hide stuff from us, then again my heartbeats are completely of my beloved country Mexico, I love my nation and I know this not what is happening, it is sad that they are taking so long to fix it but that doesn't mean that the goverment is making secret plans to end with my beautiful country.
Me beeing a studdborn right sided person only see this as a left orientated goverment that is always trying to call the atention in the most desesperate ways, worse is my country is full of ignorants and artists who are always agains everything and they think that pig flu is fake untill someone they know gets it of course, sad and pathetic.

Moving on right now I am reading my systems of islam books is kind of hard to understand but I amtrying hard basically because I lost a lot of time in the past and because I want to impress my new friend/teacher/time will tell that is giving me the links and classes but something tells me he wont think I did a lot of progress I am keepng my fingers crossed! ( I know I shouldn't say that because it's like saying it gives power to the crosses but I don't know any other sake)

Moving on life is totally boring on quarantine, and I think aybe because of that I am falling inlove again I bet it must be the fact that I don't do anything I met amazing people this week

I will continue to read

Cronica de una muerte anunciada

So aparently my beloved soccer team is out of the league, is almost official, I hate to admit it, but it really hurts it hurts that bad I will start this entry in spanish

Hola soy Eli y si soy tigre, lo he sido desde que descubri lo que era el futbol (soccer) he ido tantas veces al estadio, y he sido muy feliz en muchas ocaciones, me trae lindos recuerdos ir con mi familia al estadio o los inicios de temporada, ver el clasico.

Lo admito, y no me importa lo que pienses, he llorado, aunque solo una vez y nadie me vio, era una final y la perdimos.

Lo importante es que he sido muy feliz y he visto pasar a muchos buenos jugadores por el equipo, muchos buenos juegos, buenos momentos y simplemente algo que une a mi familia, por tonto que suene.

Tengo muchos recuerdos pero sobre todo fue la primera vez que fui al estadio, no se que año fue exactamente pero jugaba Luis Hernandez, a.k.a "El matador" todos decian que era bueno, yo no se de eso, la primera vez que fui no recuerdo si ganaron o perdieron la verdad, fue lo de menos, disfrute mucho el juego y no podia esperar para ver el siguiente (aunque fuera por tele porque no vivia en monterrey en esos tiempos)

Y con el tiempo empeze a querer mas a el equipo es algo raro de explicar como algo como el futbol se puede querer, pero asi sucedio cuando menos me lo espere ya estaba yo completamente enamorada, me gustaba ver los juegos,y desde ahi auqnue me he perdido varios siempre me preocupo por saber el resultado y leer por ahi una cronica.

Y digo todo esto con nostalgia porque siento que aunque no lo quiera y aunque nadie lo quiera el equipo dejara de existir, y solo me refiero a primera division, porque el equipo existira por siempre para sus seguidores, no pienso quejarme como todos los demas, pues yo si apoyo a mi equipo incondicionalmente.

Es mas bien un sentimiento como de estar defraudado, es raro ver que las personas que te representan en el equipo no sientan lo mismo que tu, que no sientan lo que significa para nosotros representar al equipo, aunque nosotros solo los veamos.

Es triste ver que algo en lo que yo en verdad creia se este desvaneciendo ante mi, y si yo seguire apoyando, pero no apoyo las desiciones que se han tomado ultimamente el el club, no apoyo a mis representantes que se han encargado de arruinarme los sabados por la noche, y si seguire viendo todos los juegos porque yo si estoy comprometida con el equipo.

No entiendo en realidad porque pasa lo que esta pasando, sera porque ellos no saben lo que es para muchos comprar la camiseta del equipo, ellos la tienen gratis.

Lo digo con nostalgia pero con esperanza de que alguno sienta la misma emocion que todos nosotros, y sientan amor y entiendan la responsabilidad que tienen al representar a la institucion, pensar asi talvez sea muy ingenuo y se que hay muchas cosas atras que probablemente nadie de nosotros conozca pero espero en verdad que alguno de los que se hacen llamar jugadores, tecnicos, etc etc sienta algun dia el amor y orgullo que siente la gente hacia tigres

Se despide Eli un poco cansada y sorry por la falta de acentuacion

Simply Red is simply not cute I rather O saya

So I was starting to get really curious about this red head I saw in a music store called simply red so as a good stalker I went ahead and check his myspace only to see he is not so cute as in the album cover, he is old honestly, and his music is so so so damn gay. If I want to hear corny stff I rather listen it from a hot Hindi man LOL I rather watch bollywood than listening to another whitey boy crying over love.


So yes gay music is my bitching thing now, whiteys are no longer a matter of interest to me I rather support the radicals like my hero M.I.A noone can pwn her she is the best and will always be the very best :)



M.I.A! @ grammy 9 months pregnant
gave an aawesome performance


Friday was the best with marykay and yolis we had tons of fun palomas, painted nails travesti style LOL, some cool tatooes I got usher on my breast LOL, we had a blast

Special thanks to kei for blogging about that'shideous.com :D

Mi malteada nananana

nanana The Eli is waiting for her dear friend Mariela to come and get her so they can all go out and drink... cofee.

This is my new life eys without any bad things :D

Anyway I am tired of waiting but I have nothing else to do because is spring break and my laptop died so since I don't have my laptop I don't get to do my assigments.

So Yesterday Ahmed F. ( not my ex) told me he was supposed to play soccer and he always lost if he won he said it was because of me.

Ahmed R. ( my ex) told me he can forget everything no matter how important it was everything turns into memories.

I wonder what Ahmed I would prefer? and most important I wonder how that game ended!!

In other stuff I decided I am back into unsensitive bitch mode so wait for a very special entry whenever someone makes me upset

ANyway Mary Kay is on her way home wich is less than 5 min so I g2g

Love tequila and sex

Eli

P.S To all the drinking people take a tequila shot on my name because I can't do any D:

I wish I could Jai Ho all night

Again beeing in the mood for all the things I can not get.

Today was the longest day so far I hate to type in the dark, so as I previously mention things you should not do I stayed in

2. Beeing on denial is probably the worse but is up to you guys I think that there are some people that are worth the wait,

3. Waiting like 2 weeks to get a hello kitty plate and not gettin g it for the photoshoot you will do in two weeks that have been keeping you awake

4. Depending on others: is easy people are never there when you really really need them, people don't have a reason to be with you unless they need something. I believe I am the only person in this universe that talks to people when I don't need anything I am the only one who cares about people for real, not expectinmg anything back, because I know none of the people I've ever met will give me anything back.

5. Never fall inlove, I was the happiest kid beeing a careless bitch CARELESS now I am sad pathetic and I think a lot.

Next post what you should do

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I was emo once

Oh, Shiva, I just talked to them

Hello dear invisible readers:

Welcome to another painful entry on your favorite blog forever and ever, today we will talk about things you should not do on the regular basis:
1. drink lots of cofee: last night I had the very first side effect of cofee ( apart from the uber small titties) I was awake untill 3 am looking at the sky of my room yes the ceeling, all night long, well thinking about many things and improving my comunication with gosx turns out I getting good at it.
2. Be on denial
I will continue later because my father loves to interrupt me when I blog

Goodtimes & Sunglasses

Everytime I have a good time I happen to wear sunglasses,recently I have wore sunglasses a lot but I haven´t got a goodtime, I miss people but people oviouslt doesn´t miss me so I listen to atlernative music to forget, I am starting to feel really depressed everytime I eat and that´s realy weird I have to admit. I miss going out and having a good time, just do stuff without thinking, beeing unresponsible was the best thing that could ever happen to me, kissing without loving, touching without caring, those were the good days and they are long gone, just one more tequila shot to end the night, and now my nights are just lame, Who do I blame? should I blame my friends for they total absence, should I blame my school for taking all my free time? hell no I should blame myself for becoming this sad pathetic excuse of good girl that has taken me away from almost everyone I know. I feel that noone likes me anymore and it's a shame because the only thing that changed is that I don't party like a rockstar anymore so that means that is nto worth it to miss those people.
Lately I've been reflexing a lot mainly on the fact that I take my dog for a walk everyday 1 hour of taning for me 1 hour of thinking and 1 hour of workout for fifi I was trying to get a picture of her but I don't know why I couldn't find any, anyway is almost time for me to go to the gym, and yesterday I was feeling sooo soo bad so dizzy so I almost didn't do anything. I think my blog was funnier when I just made fun of everyone I don't know if I just grew up or I am back to beeing a closet bitch I don't even know if that word exists.

My Chia pet Nigga is slowly dying I talked to him last night and he didn't said anything

Peace
Eli

Spring Break Aloha... not!

It's your favorite girl Eli, making an update on the most boring vacations EVER I should do homeworks but I refuse instead I listen to a little bit of alternative music with lots of guitars, yes yes electrifying, or I see tv, or I take fifi our for a walk, anyway the gym is something I always do, at least it keeps me a little bit more active, today I had hot cakes for breakfast eww ew they were yummy but I couldn't stop eating.
Yesterday I was listening to beatles "1" so I thought why not write something to Ahmed I already sent it I hope it turns out the way I want it to work

I was listening to my cd of the calling “camino palmero” I listened to it so many times my computer won´t read it anymore wich sucks I wanted to sing along with the dude that sings on track 12 as if I drinked at least 2 or 3 shots of tequila, this is the third time I try to introduce it yayy it worked, anyway there’s a lot of time to get to track 12.

In the last couple of days there has been so much drama around me, drama of my friends, my family, my ex & me, the other day I found myself walking around contry, which is a hmm a neighborhood in Monterrey, I visited a friend and we talked about everything that has been happening in our lives, she had a problem that reminded me of the ones I had last December at the most hypocritical party I´ve ever been to, yes I´m still a Hispanic teleservices hater.

Track 12 is here I´m singing my special song “ So lately been wondering who will be there to take my place” I lay in my bed and sing it I imagine you next to me hugging me, and at that moment everything is perfect, I imagine your arms aroung me, everything is so real and I wish this moment could last forever. Then again I open y eyes and find the truth I am alone in my room writing this to my blog so I can laugh about this in2 years.

Later on I want to play videogames since I like never ever play and I certainly need something new to do. I am bored and waiting for a repply for the email

I've been readying the Quran I just hope I am understanding it

Cambio y fuera //// ELi

Christmas!! I miss you

I need to move on

For the sake of my mental sanity I need to move on and forget everything that bounded me to who I was, I need to be a new person, someone better, someone everybody likes, if I´m good people plays with me, if I am a bitch people talk about me, either way noone will ever know the true me, not even my closest friends know the real me, only one person knows me completely and I wish he never did, he knows how to hurt me, he knows exactly what buttons to push, and I am tired of beeing vulnerable, I am tired. Today after the worse incident ever I went to a friend´s house, we had the best talk ever I felt bad about all the missunderstandings from the past, I know our frienship is for real, and for that I am really thankful

They drink?

I need many many things lately I am so confused I just want to see things clearly

Cupcakes & Milkshakes hosted by our favorite diva Hidalgo

Again my favorite day with my favorite diva Hidalgo, he got late as usual, just to teach us we have to wait for our “customer” but he is not my customer and he doesn’t have my respect not now not tomorrow, anyway I am back to my “shut up and smile” look so I don’t get in trouble as I usually do, what is tremendously impossible that my logo lost in the competition, well first no surprise because people are usually really tacky and my brand was really something else, I mean not just because it has all the colors on it and some “I draw kinder garden style” illustrations doesn’t mean is the best, I can tell that one of the brands was actually better than mine, but the other one ( I won’t say names because is like more people read this and I don’t want to look like a nasty bitch)
I have some “please keep your mouth shut” issues but I never learn from them.
So I was looking at this dating website just for fun, so I could find my Muslim prince but so far is not working, I’ve always thought website dating is just pathetic but I did it to make one of my friend’s happy. I am convinced there's noone in this universe for me.
I spoke to Ahmed again smply because I just can't stay away from that bastard!