it all comes back to the start

Tonight I had a problem I didn't had in a longg long time, but it came back all of a suden.
From now on all the posts on my blog will be coded, words won't mean what they mean but it will all make sense in my head. It really hurts specially when water falls over my skin, and this morning my mother told me she thinks I'm a whore, and beeing that I am completely the opposite, but at this point I'm so tired of proving to everyone what I am and what I am not.
I am distracted by some weird lights and I wonder what they mean. I feel like spending a day alone 24 hours me and my head and possibly a bottle of god knows what
You told me you were going to be there and you weren't I guess you were not ready to hear all my secrets I don't think anyone is
so far around 100 calories I could easily burn out I must not fuck this up (:
and hi to my daddy who loves tor ead my blog

I was wearing a red bracelet when i woke up in Vegas

I could live in apples and coffe, but then people will alegate I have some sort problem. yet who doesn't have a problem?
My problem is (among others) that I fall inlove too quickly, at the least sign of apreciation, and that's completely stupid. Easy comes easy goes
Later I'll get a lot of beads for my red bracelets
I totally lost the inspiration for today

red bracelets and zero coke

I am addicted to trouble, I hang out with trouble people, I go to trouble places, I'm always borderline something, borderline alcoholic, borderline OCD, borderline just borderline. I wonder why I like to be in danger situations all the time around drunk people, around high people, around robers, also I realized I think I kind pof have a problem stealing I stole in total 54 splenda bags from all seven eleven I know.
Tomorrow I'll pick the beads for my red bracelet

Addobe FLash & I can't stop thinking about something errr someone else

So what are the chanses that you might find what you've been looking for, but you just can't have it? that's basically the story of my life, can't get the person I want, can't get to where I want to go, but the main difference is I now look at the things that I can get, I focus on the possitive side of life even if life shows me all the things why i should be all bubbly as I am.
FOr now it's almos 9 am and I've been awake for 3 hours, I have a long day to come, but I will just look at the possitive, I'll go to my work and I'll be happy that I'm in school & I'll ge to have a career.
It's Monday and it was way to early when i woke up, but I am happy is Moday because that mean I have a new week to have a fresh start.
And the vending machine just took almost 20 pesos for me, and I was angry, but hey at least I have money to get stuff from the vending machine.
I am usually just ranting but that won't make any different and I want to make a difference.
xoxo
Ellie

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