Eli's thoughful box

medio mal

2011-06-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

El peor sentimiento que se puede tener es cuando ya no se puede creer mas cuando ya se perdieron las esperanzas en lo que sea que se cree, pues después de eso en mi opinión ya no queda nada, lo peor es cuando de pierde la fe que se tiene en si mismo, yo hace mucho la perdí, y se piensa en una enorme lista de tonterías y nada a la vez, lo que algún día pensaste que valía la pena ya no lo vale y realmente de pronto las cosas ya no pueden cambiar, lo mas raro es cuando sientes que falta algo pero que es... eso es lo que no se y lo que me gustaría saber es que es lo que necesito hacer para llenar este vacío que he tenido durante la mayoría de mi vida.... completely lost

how come

2011-05-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

Cada vez que intento hacer de bloggear un bonito habito simplemente olvido que el punto es hacerlo constantemente, al igual que mi diario escrito lo que me parece triste porque me es fascinante ser testigo de mis propios cambios, y vaya que he cambiado soy una persona que cambia mucho, y realmente me pregunto si estos cambios son como algunas personas dicen que porque no tengo personalidad, pero me parece que la vida es muy corta para no probar todo y ser de todo, quiero ser todo me produce un pcoo de estres saber que tengo 22 y se me acaba el tiempo de hacer todo.

Sigo creyendo que no me merezco coger gracias :( (que fina soy)

2010-10-12T19:47:00.000-07:00

100 things to check off.

1. Had a threesome.

~~2. Been drunk.~~

3. Touched a real gun.

~~4. Done drugs.~~

~~5. Wrote on a bathroom stall.~~

~~6. Took “naughty” pictures of myself.~~

~~7. Had sex.~~

8. Got into a fist fight.

~~9. Used Twitter.~~

~~10. Listened to Lady Gaga.~~

~~11. Been in a car accident.~~

12. Gotten suspended.

13. Gotten expelled.

~~14. Got a computer virus.~~

~~15. Had a hand-written diary.~~

16. Been allergic to something.

~~17. Had a dog.~~

~~18. Had a cat.~~

19. Been pregnant.

~~20. Had a pregnancy scare.~~

~~21. Had unprotected sex.~~

~~22. Camped out.~~

~~23. Swam in the ocean.~~

24. Wore a bikini.

~~25. Met someone and recognized them from Myspace or Facebook.~~

~~26. Made a survey.~~

27. Used ICQ.

~~28. Failed a class for the year.~~

29. Repeated a grade

30. Went to summer school.

~~31. Was on the honor roll.~~

~~32. Got the regular honor roll (A’s and B’s).~~

~~33. Learned to speak another language fluently.~~

~~34. Read an entire book.~~

35. Recorded my own music.

36. Had an Xbox.

~~37. Listened to Rammstein.~~

38. Wore fishnets.

~~39. Bought skinny jeans.~~

~~40. Been in love.~~

~~41. Hated someone.~~

~~42. Been cheated on.~~

~~43. Cheated on someone.~~

~~44. Had a bf/gf.~~

45. Been kissed by someone of the same sex.

~~46. Practiced Christianity.~~

~~47. Worn makeup.~~

~~48. Had a cavity.~~

~~49. Had surgery.~~

50. Had my license.

~~51. Been to college.~~

~~52. Graduated high school.~~

53. Took antidepressants.

54. Worn colored contacts.

~~55. Painted my nails black.~~

~~56. Broken someone’s heart.~~

~~57. Had my heart broken.~~

~~58. Cried for an hour straight.~~

~~59. Lost something very valuable.~~

60. Had sex in a car.

61. Got separated from my parents as a kid.

62. Broken a bone.

63. Gotten stung by a bee.

~~64. Eaten something bad/expired.~~

~~65. Threw up from being so drunk.~~

66. Had to put a pet to sleep.

67. Participated in a swinger’s party.

~~68. Owned an iPod.~~

69. Owned an iPhone.

~~70. Fell for a best friend.~~

71. Stole a friend’s significant other.

~~72. Slapped someone in the face.~~

73. Went away from home for more than a week.

74. Moved out.

75. Ran away.

~~76. Teased my brother/sister.~~

~~77. Ate too much to move.~~

~~78. Been to the hospital to visit someone.~~

~~79. Had food poisoning.~~

~~80. Had a job.~~

81. Been fired.

~~82. Lied to a friend.~~

~~83. Lied to a family member.~~

~~84. Lied to a significant other.~~

~~85. Posted a video on YouTube.~~

~~86. Started a rumor about someone.~~

~~87. Didn’t try on a test but still passed.~~

88. Dropped out of school.

89. Gotten my “private parts” pierced.

90. Been skinny dipping

91. Counted to a million.

~~92. Counted to a thousand.~~

93. Ate deer meat.

~~94. Ate duck meat.~~

~~95. Had fast food.~~

~~96. Been to church.~~

97. Been to a synagogue.

98. Been married.

99. Had a divorce.

100. Broken a window

it's been ages

2010-08-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

Ha pasado algo de tiempo desde mi ultimo post dgamos que me tome un break para ser normal o para no quemar gente, que mal, pero en esa busqueda interminable de quien soy, encontre a un grupo nuevo de amigas y me hacen sentir muy feliz, creo que con ellas puedo ser quien realmente soy y se que jamas se burlarian de mi por pensar diferente.
En estas vacaciones fui muy feliz pero es hora de regresar a la realidad y ver que eso no me trae alegria entre que me alarma y entre que me invita a ser autodestructva como antes, no se que hare en verdad y tampoco se con cual me sentire mas satisfecha, a veces pienso que ser feliz me hace ver mas fea pero estar triste y en control me parece una mejor idea, mas bien me gustaria vivir sola y en control que tan lejos estara ese dia? Hay algo que me quita el sueño realmente no se que es

Maquillaje

2010-04-18T20:25:00.000-07:00

Una entradita rapida antes de dormir, pienso que ya he encontrado lo que quiero hacer con mi vida y lo voy a lograr por mas extraño que parezca lo que quiero ser es ser lo mas pequeño mas no invisible, muchas veces se intenta.
Luego dire que mas sigue por lo pronto dormire que me siento mal
P.S me maquille y me veia horrible... vaya vaya

Nada mas que amor

2010-04-01T00:02:00.000-07:00

Cuando tenia 12 fue la primera vez que me encontré realmente triste, no recuerdo todavía que sucedió porque los momentos los olvidas pero los sentimientos no. Llegue a mi casa y comí, hice la tarea cumplí con la rutina diaria, me dirigí a mi cuarto y ahí tome mi diario y una foto de la familia, con la firme certeza de que si deseaba dormirme para siempre así seria, esta de mas decir que realmente no sucedió pues estoy escribiendo esto ahorita, me es difícil contestar la pregunta : Eres feliz Elizabeth? ese día creo un parte-aguas importante en la historia de mi vida. Pero porque es esto importante? Hoy me he vuelto a sentir así jure que con solo desearlo sucedería pero desearía tantas cosas que no suceden, es parte de mi naturaleza egoísta supongo, he pasado de vivir a sobrevivir y si me lo preguntan la verdad no se si algún día vuelva a ser feliz.
Con riesgo de sonar mas patética aún es raro no saber como vas a sobrevivir el día a día aunque lo tengas todo

Poner mi cara de juego

2010-03-21T11:27:00.000-07:00

Hoy es dia de ponerse serios con mi cara de juego y esperar que todo salga bien, me molesta de sobre manera cuando alguien dice algo que no debería porque no hará que suceda nada al contrario solo destruye, tengo muchos rencores guardados sin fundamentos, pero solo alimentan mi rencor propio hay días que me levanto y pienso que ni siquiera merezco comer, porque esas cosas te las ganas y yo no me he ganado nada.
No tengo una idea de que hacer después de 3 a;os de tener ideas rapidas ahora me encuentro sin nada que hacer pues no puedo pensar en nada.

Love my hair

2010-03-20T13:47:00.000-07:00

Hoy me di cuenta que me cabello ha crecido mucho y que en realidad el cabello es estúpidamente importante para mi.
En la incesante tarea de encontrarme a mi misma me siento demasiado perdida o tal vez es solamente que no quiero ver la obvia respuesta que esta frente de mi, lo que si pienso hacer es seguir como voy, pienso que al final del día pese a quien le pese yo soy yo, y si las personas realmente fueran amigas mías o se adaptarían o me ayudarían, pero realmente como siempre estoy sola en esto.
Algo que me molesta tanto e mi carrera es que las personas que conozco siempre tratan de sobresalir hundiendo a los demás, y por eso huí de leyes.
Oficialmente en la etapa mas rara de mi vida.
Manana tengo demasiado que hacer y muy poco tiempo

I really don't see it

2010-03-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

Después de ser toda una emo por mas de una hora me di cuenta de que si la gente cambia y muchas veces no es para bien, pero que no se supone que la gente mas cercana a ti debería informártelo o aceptarte como eres, lo claro es que la realidad no es así, en parte todo ha sido mi culpa por nunca pedir ayuda pero entre la que era y la que soy ya ni siquiera se cual soy realmente soy la que era cuando tenia 18 o soy la que soy ahora que tengo 21. Aunque nunca he sentido que sean entidades separadas porque alguien no puede tener varias personalidades a la vez, no siento realmente saber quien soy en esencia, se que no soy tonta, y muchas personas creen que si, pero mi verdadero dilema es: Les pruebo que se equivocan o no?
La mayoría de mi piensa que no vale lo que piensen, o que no vale la pena tratar de mostrar quien soy realmente, eso se me hace un poco egoísta.
Un día me levante y sentí que nada iba a poder detenerme creo que fueron los 6 meses mas felices de mi vida, pero otro día me levante y esa parte de mi ya no estaba ahí y no se como se fue pero se que lo mas probable es que nunca regrese.
Lo que también pienso es que ya no entiendo que es real para mi... si la que era o la que soy

Lugar vacio

2010-03-15T22:38:00.000-07:00

Porque escribir en ingles es realmente absurdo, ahora quiero que la gente que sabe ingles ya no me lea mas.

Hoy me siento como que mi cabeza me va a explotar, pero solo quiero mas y mas dolor, siento que mi cerebro me va a salir por mi nariz, mis orejas y mis ojos se van a soltar de mi cabeza.

Me parece sorprendente como la gente se puede perder en las drogas o el alcohol, pero yo solo me he perdido en una cosa: yo misma, creo que la mente es mucho mas poderosa que cualquier droga.
Me he dado cuenta que esto que tengo puede que se algo mas pero prefiero perderme en mi misma y hacer como que no se nada y no me doy cuenta, para este punto ya me he dado cuenta de que nunca voy a poder volver atrás, ni ser la que era hace 2 años, pues hace 2 años no había pasado por algunas cosas y esas cosas me hacen quien soy ahora.

Me he perdido en mi misma en cuanto a que no puedo dejar de escuchar una voz que me dice que hacer que no escuchaba antes, ya no me importa que pasaría en 5 años pues quien sabe donde este y como este en ese instante, me he convertido en una vividora de el momento, me gustaría admitir que tengo mil problemas pero la verdad mi problema es ser asquerosa mente ordinaria a veces pienso que he pasado por muchas cosas y otras pienso que no he hecho nada a veces me siento como si tuviera 100 años, si la gente supiera lo que realmente pienso.

Hace mucho que no escribo un poema y hace mucho que me dejo de importar que va a pasar.

eww I want rice

2010-03-10T14:05:00.000-08:00

I just ate my life in that salad and fish and ice cream and nutty bar, wish is a very very bad thing I wonder if there's anything I can actually do right my stomach hurts it happens everytime I guess my self destructiveness is geting to a whole new level if people only knew what I'm up to feels weird having so much control.
There's a point in your life where you know there's no return to the normal self that you were I've been tryimg to cheer myself up... not happening

I'm so good at writting

2010-03-04T23:37:00.000-08:00

Yet I can't make you feel what I want you to feel
I wonder many things
For a second I thought I wanted many things maybe a forever deal everything is certain except my forever
I can feel your words in my brain telling me to be brave and do it just get it over with everyday there's a small reminder that I should do it and 20 other voices telling me not to is so hard having someone to live for
The voice that matters the most is silent but how can I interpret silence what does it means I am not leaving as long as I have a goal and my goal is to see everyone happy and not dependant on me once it is acomplished I will do it

windows

2010-03-01T21:17:00.000-08:00

WHen I wrote Ahmed's name with a razorblade on my right hip (how emo of me) I thought it was a link that we were going to share forever but how can you even share a link with someone you don't really know I'm so tired of secrets and lies wich for me are both the same thing I don't really know what to do with myself anymore but I know what I don't want. As we had the last conversation on saturday I saw the freaking ring I know because he said it a thousand times we should have lifes besides each other but what exactly does that mean, no one wears a ring for nothing specially a ring like that I've been a fool most of my life and that's not about to change I wish I was strong enough to do what I want but what I want will hurt people some people the real people wich is like my mom and that's basically it.
I've never been free never in my entire life there not a single day where I can say I'm free I know what I want and I'm trying really hard not to do it this one day at a time thing is not working I don't even think anyone could help me at this point my deistion is taking I'm just waiting for the right time

seconds

2010-02-28T18:54:00.000-08:00

I believe in any given second I will loose all control there's a point in your life where there's no way toget back to what you were there's a point where you look ar yourself in the mirrorand wonder why you did everything you did why doyou think the way you think what could you do to get back to the moment where everything was ok

wishing

2010-02-28T01:05:00.000-08:00

I wish I was happy I don't even know what real happiness means anymore there's highlights on my day when I am happy but it's so short I really can't be happy I'm tired of faking everything faking my life faking to feel good I wonder how would it feel to be jsut myself for once, I've been in the very same dark spot since forever and as much as I seem happy I am really not I really wish I ws fucking dead I really wish I didn't do as much stupid things as I fucking did I regret so many things but what can I do I'm still the same as when I was 16 very destructive they say you should regret what you do I do it all the time a fucking scar that will never EVER go away how can I take it away I want to wake up and be someone else why won't it go away as long as this scar stays there I'm not me I don't even know what I am

115: Hard to believe

2010-01-07T21:13:00.001-08:00

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110 One year ago

2009-12-06T12:44:00.000-08:00

One year ago I at this same days I was a hopeless drunk not hopeless actually but pretty drunk. Yesterday I hang out with the people that lead me to that, is such a weird influence people can have on you.
Old Ellie is back (:

20 años

2009-11-24T21:51:00.000-08:00

Tengo 9 minutos mas que tendre 20 años siento que estoy haviendome grande demasiado rapido, que no disfruto mi vida y me siento muy emo en realidad siento que desperdicie el año

109? roadtrip longest entry EVER

2009-11-18T11:12:00.000-08:00

First thoughts on the road errr line to go to Brownsville

I'm not sure for who I wrote that name because I knwo 2 people with the same one, Number 1 is the first he will always be the first no matter what he came to my life when I needed it the most, he is just like me and he gets me more than I get myself, there's no secrets between us and I am sure I will never forget him. But then there's number 2, who showed me a love i could only have dremt of. He showed me how to love, He showed me that it wasn't wrong to give your entire soul in every second that we were together, He & I were one , many times I was his, many times his hands showed me how to touch, how to love, how to press all the buttons. I still hear his voice in my head telling me softly about all the places he wants to kiss, and with his words touching my skin I can feel so much in just one seconds he can bring me to places I never knew, just remembering him brings the most unbelievable chills down my spine memories of sweet love and deep pleasure. ( Here I was cut off by getting to some place)

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Thoughts on the last day

This roadtrip has been a complete disaster. I’ve never felt weirder in entire life. I think depression hit me hard because no one really cares about all the things I care. My best friend was a guinea pig & she spoke to me and said she wanted her nails done and I did one until my cousin decided it was too much poison and I shouldn’t continue. I try to keep a journal because is so important to keep a record of thoughts plus as mas says its just theraphy for the head. First day I got here I was full of memois and I went to a place I wasn’t welcomed before and it was weird but pleasant, I can’t believe how much of a hypocrites my family members are . I am still waiting on my frapuccino that was the bait for all this nightmare, my birthday is coming in two weeks I wonder if I will actually do something I am really not sure if I’ll manage to have time, my heart beats faster as I realize I don’t have much . As I walked the Christmas stuff allies in the store I realize that no one really cares about what I want to do, and this trip was ALL for nothing because not even the family meeting went well as I am concerned. No one in this universe can take things seriously for one second of course until I yell at them and become the public enemy of the entire family. All the time I was thinking I wish I was drunk I wish I had a normal family who wasn’t scared of the evilness of alcohol I want to get drunk so bad, but for my family that’s the ultimate sin, I could be the dirtiest whore that would be ok as long as I do it sober. I am writing and playing a weird retro game and now I will take a writers break to pick up all the stuff because thanks god this hell of trip willl be over soon

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Outlets

I really didn't wanted to eat so I bought a cofee wich was btw the most expensive frapuccino E-V-E-R I am sitting at the food court wich is well... gross I am sitting in a table in the middle of other 2 tables, on one them it's a super cute guy ( talk about human nature LOL) there are 2 bottles at his table wich leads me to the idea that there's 2 people that set there & eat but Where is that other perso? I think it will be a cute skinny girl.

Yesterday my mom and my sister were talking about how much my brother likes skinny girls & How much eeryone usually dislike fat people. I wonder if they will ever notice that I am one of the fat people they critisiz. After we eat we will go shopping where my dad will be a bitch on how much money he spends on me like if I was a terrible burden he has to carry aroud. I find it really amazing that fat people tend to wear Ed Hardy thus I will never ever EVERRRR wear it, I'm already fat so why feed the stereotype. So actually the girl got here and she's skinny probaly size 1-2 her face is a mess but who cares she's skinny right? I know if I don't eat I will die but everytime I eat a little something dies inside of me. I don't think I will find a dress for my birthday watching people eat is one of the weirdest things ever some of them are bored but most seem very happy I wish I could be a happy eater, my dad will get super angry at us because we want to eat ( here I was cut off again and this is the end)

entry #108 mas is ignoring me

2009-11-13T11:07:00.000-08:00

Mas is ignoring me mas means more in spanish I want more from mas.

More fiction to come

I finally did it I wrote your name o my skin with a very ugly razor balde I found from sone stuff I got in first semester, it didn't hurt... at all
A-H-M-E-D on my right hip the name of the man I will never forget A... is the first letter in the alphabeth and the first letter that started it all H is such a fancy letter it looks so nice on my white pale skin next to it is the letter M wich is the letter that i crave in the best straight lines are the best and they don't hurt as much as the curves, E is for my ED wich is making me crazy I can look thin and fat at the same time it controls my mind and my body D is the last letter I'm so glad you have a short name that will be in my skin forever
I love Ahmed 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,etc

the end

#107

2009-11-12T11:33:00.001-08:00

There's a story I can't seem to take out of my head so I thought why not writting it down. Pure fiction for once.

My name is not to be known, I just want to share a story of my daily life, for years now I had a worm in my head that tells me what to do, as for this moment it tells me to type untill my fingers fall down, last night was hard night I was supposed to sleep I graves aknife and wrote a big A on my hip your name will always be there for me, I was afraid I would do it wrong so I didn't continue with the rest I want to have your name in my body and I'm thankful you don't have a crazy long name because that will hurt, I am not sane, I like to starve and I have all my records on my dear notebook, I'm sure everyone knows about it already but they pretend I'm just a sick atention caller. I spend hours in the bathroom and I'm adicted to laxative pills I hate the thought of having food on my body and surpringly I like to look like I'm sick because that's what I really am, a very sick person. I love to drink I wish I was drunk all the time but then again alcohol has so much calories I can't take it. I cut myself every night and this no one will know because I hide the scars with clothes on place you wouldn't believe. I forgot the rest

*sigh* again this is all in my head

First like in class

2009-11-10T09:08:00.000-08:00

Not only I am infront of the entire class I am next to the teacher's desk
some weird taco and a diet dr pepper and coffee
someone just got into the classroom sits on the front row but still everyone is seeing me
ANd they will see me even more because I will show them my pictures
I never liked showing my work because it's my head and my mind I feel like beeing naked in front of them wich is not something I would like.
I stuff my face on coffee.
You pissed me off & as much as I wanted to be nice I said something bad, no regrets
maybe it was the cafeina speaking ( pocho much)
I wish I was mroe tolerant to b.s
I still got 4.5 hours to go and today has been the longest day ever
I miss my tequila hehe mas mas mas

sugar rush up and tears

2009-11-09T10:46:00.000-08:00

Sunday was a complete failure regarding everything.
I like temporal things, such as temporal jobs, small time means you never get tired of the rutine. I love long distance relationships, when your man is ehre pay attention when he's gone be yourself I wish I could do that forever and ever.
When I get home I said I ate at work, I ate gossip and pillows later on I'll get my stuff for the photoshoot I just hope dad gets home on time to get the 2 thngs I want. and he did
You are such a wonderful lady he said to me.
Random thoughts
cofee, a finger strip the size of my finger and some STUPID french fries RANDOM THOUGHT

In my head

2009-11-07T13:56:00.000-08:00

So I ate a hamburger today and it was the weirdest feeling ever, not because of the meat or anything but seeing the people around me eating it completely freaked me out.
The secret is out as well as my craving for sweets, damn I curse my sweettooth
Today is officially the weirdest day I can't stop eating everything in front of me I take, as for now I am dipping some cookies in chocolate fudge as I watch a program of an old lady that has a young lover.
Today I saw that you were no longer there it was nice meeting you but I wonder why you didn't stay longer, since you were inspiration personified in a fucked up non-existant guy. Am I fucked up or what?

Espirales bathroom blogging

2009-11-05T11:28:00.000-08:00

Estoy callendo por un espiral, that couldn't describe me better, I think there's always some old ways that never EVER go away, actually ways that hurt more than you can actually imagine. but then how can you know words mean what they actually mean.
I'm thinking for the first time in a long time I'll trust someone a secret, but then I wonder how would they re-act. *writting break to make some quesadillas* and the writting brewak took me almost oe day, I was so sleepy I cried because my eyes wouldn't close.
The other night a big black butterfly showed up in my room leaving me sleepless and thoughtful for the rest of the night, maybe because I am too supersticious, but really think twice when you decide to neglect this things, I thought everything was fine but thaks to my tequila developed 6th senese the first second i saw the butterfly only one person could come into my head, I tried to ignore it but the thought was there and it was today when I realized my thoughts were real.
For once I will like to get involved in a relationship with someone who is normal or at least less fucked up than me is that too much to ask?
I really miss the time when I was about 15 everything was so nice, new girl in town, people wondering about me, good times.
Old ways are very hard to remove old ways will bring all of us down. A living reminder are my swollen intestines that crackle every night. Last night a pill went down the sink and I wanted to get it back and I couldn't but then again none of this is making sense.
Christmas save me? All the exitemente I had by october is gone by november, I won't have a happy birthday if I don't hear the news.
My old ways are my only friend

pre & post rapidito

2009-11-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow I'll start something new thing in my so called now but as for now I feel full of food and not even good food.
TOday is tomorrow and as I drink cofee I ca't stop thinking about donuts so I'll have more cofee. Party at work there was tons of food or at least that's what I said
It's me in the thing! I like when things I write don't ake any sense at all so people can actually wonder what it means
I know that evntually things will get out of control as everything I do but thanks god I am a person that everyone believes in, I am really reliable, right now I'm so sleepy, tired, hungry, weird weird weird
I'll stop this post because is boring and I'll go home soon

Nadie me entiende ni yo mismo me entiendo

2009-11-01T16:14:00.001-08:00

I weight myself naked everyday to try to see how much my clothes weight by itself, so far I've discovered converse weight 700 gr pants usually are 500 gr. I count the calories on everything I see and is my obsession to know and write what I eat everyday even if it's to realize I eat way too much,
The other day a complete stranger asked me if I loved him and I said yes he asked how much and I said a lot, I know how fun it is to love a stranger someone who doesn't mean anything it can end anytime and well there's nothing to attach you to that person wich is basically ideal to me.

My dad drove me to school today and he waved as I left it was nice, I really liked it eve if he thought he was embarrasing me.

I was the devil for halloween but I didn' go out becuae I thought I was looking really bad all teh selfconsiousness is finally getting to me.

I sleep early I love sleeping

Someone said I'm actually a little fat, wich is nothing new to me I know it, but hearing someone else sayingit makes it way more real lets me know that I don't have a sickness where I see myself fat, I AM FAT no imagination thing ot whatever

it all comes back to the start

2009-10-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

Tonight I had a problem I didn't had in a longg long time, but it came back all of a suden.
From now on all the posts on my blog will be coded, words won't mean what they mean but it will all make sense in my head. It really hurts specially when water falls over my skin, and this morning my mother told me she thinks I'm a whore, and beeing that I am completely the opposite, but at this point I'm so tired of proving to everyone what I am and what I am not.
I am distracted by some weird lights and I wonder what they mean. I feel like spending a day alone 24 hours me and my head and possibly a bottle of god knows what
You told me you were going to be there and you weren't I guess you were not ready to hear all my secrets I don't think anyone is
so far around 100 calories I could easily burn out I must not fuck this up (:
and hi to my daddy who loves tor ead my blog

I was wearing a red bracelet when i woke up in Vegas

2009-10-27T12:13:00.000-07:00

I could live in apples and coffe, but then people will alegate I have some sort problem. yet who doesn't have a problem?
My problem is (among others) that I fall inlove too quickly, at the least sign of apreciation, and that's completely stupid. Easy comes easy goes
Later I'll get a lot of beads for my red bracelets
I totally lost the inspiration for today

red bracelets and zero coke

2009-10-26T14:23:00.000-07:00

I am addicted to trouble, I hang out with trouble people, I go to trouble places, I'm always borderline something, borderline alcoholic, borderline OCD, borderline just borderline. I wonder why I like to be in danger situations all the time around drunk people, around high people, around robers, also I realized I think I kind pof have a problem stealing I stole in total 54 splenda bags from all seven eleven I know.
Tomorrow I'll pick the beads for my red bracelet

Addobe FLash & I can't stop thinking about something errr someone else

2009-10-25T22:36:00.000-07:00

So what are the chanses that you might find what you've been looking for, but you just can't have it? that's basically the story of my life, can't get the person I want, can't get to where I want to go, but the main difference is I now look at the things that I can get, I focus on the possitive side of life even if life shows me all the things why i should be all bubbly as I am.
FOr now it's almos 9 am and I've been awake for 3 hours, I have a long day to come, but I will just look at the possitive, I'll go to my work and I'll be happy that I'm in school & I'll ge to have a career.
It's Monday and it was way to early when i woke up, but I am happy is Moday because that mean I have a new week to have a fresh start.
And the vending machine just took almost 20 pesos for me, and I was angry, but hey at least I have money to get stuff from the vending machine.
I am usually just ranting but that won't make any different and I want to make a difference.
xoxo
Ellie

Lo que se escribe puede herir hasta morir

2009-10-25T17:36:00.000-07:00

I've been getting a lot of inspiration for my blog, but I haven't been able to write anything because my feelings are increasing to be too pure to be written.... NOT...

not so good

2009-08-08T08:38:00.000-07:00

is not fun when
a) Things don't go according to plan
b) Drama is all around you
c) There's no where to go

I'm not going through the same thing again

2009-07-24T01:25:00.001-07:00

No puedo dejar de pensar en la cancion del menchon
Siento super raro y no puedo dormir y nisiquiera puedo escribir en mi blog porque lo leera mi papa y crera que tengo demasiados problemas, soy tan facil en verdad

Hello Kitty Wallet

2009-07-19T10:46:00.000-07:00

So I went to Valle Oriente the other day after years of not going, and I found out the open a Sanrio store so I couldn't be happier and more eager to get a new job so I can own every little thing.
My vacations are about to be over and just thinking that I have to get back to school has been keeping me ill and giving me muliple headaches, I've never been a weak person ( regarding my health) but lately seems like I am a little girl that is always sick I wonder why that is happening I have no idea. Most of my vacations I've been ill and this is becoming seriously anoying, anyway i refuse to go to the doctor, there's nothign some tempra wouldn't cure, they say self medication doesn't work, but it does for me.
There's really nothing to blog about andI don't feel about bitching since I went through this "If I die right now I would SOOOOO go to hell phase" and I want to be better so instead of critisizing people, I buy shoes I've bought 3 pairs in 2 months and well I know there's woman who has way more than that but I want to have a lot of shoes too. I'm so vain
I want sanrio stuff NAOOOO

Agustín Lara

2009-07-03T10:46:00.000-07:00

Usualmente por alguna extraña razon casi siempre mantego mis cosas en secreto, como si mi subconsiente tratara de decirme que actuo mal, aunque sea alguna accion que de plano no es mala, creo que nisiquiera las personas mas cercanas a mi me conocen realmente, mis pensamientos creo que los dejo volar solamente en este blog, y ¿Porque decidi actuar de esta manera?
Porque siempre que decido abrirme con alguien sobre cualquier situacion pasa que nunca termina bien, porque la gente usualmente piensa que soy demasiado estupida para tomar desiciones por mi misma.
Ya se me fue toda la inspiracion por disgusto
xoxo
Eli

Texas Texas Texas

2009-06-19T23:08:00.000-07:00

I've been planning to do a lot during vacations, I haven't done anything not even the gym, I think I am kind of depressed because of that, I get very upset when I don't workout I don't know what I will do when my membership ends, whatever noone even notices that I've changed, wich sucks, but it's all my fault.
There's so many things that are keeping me stressed, for starters my incapability of keeping a good relationship for more than one month whatever that relationship may mean, like friends or family or a guy I always end up beeing a cold hearted bitch making some drama or a stupid fight, and aparently no one likes a person like that. I've been thinking in the last couple of days if you had 2 rooms one with people who loves me and one with people who hates me the second one will be full like a club at 2 am and most of the times I really don't care I know maybe I should but I just don't.
For once I will like to be liked.
I think i am too picky with people, but that's just me I don't really know if I am willing to change for anyone.
I wrote to someone 2 days ago I haven't got any response, it must be the end, at this point I just don't want to be with anyone, today I said to my sister, because we were talking about Orlando Bloom & other actors, and she said "Imagine if Orlando Bloom tells me I've left my gf and now I want to be with you" I don't even know what I would do meaning she'll probably leave her current bf, so withouth even thinking I said "I would never leave Ahmed for any movie star" wich first of totally shocked me because I never said that before for any guy I've dated, second because Ahmed & I are not even together at least not officially, in a way he always manages to bbring the best out of me, but with what happened in the last couple of days we will never get back together because he knows now I'l totally not worth it and he is the only one I see myself with, I keep saying to myself "With time maybe you will forget" I can't forget, why can't I just be with the only person thatI want to be with in this entire universe, why can't I for once be happy?
On islam news I've been looking at maxi dresses but beeing such a newbie I'll probably do all the shopping wrong and must of my clothes will be ugh bad but at least I hope the effort is apreciated plus I can always wear a long sleeve underneath and I'm sure a long hijab will help on the "very long neckline" situation.
I just have so much in my mind I'll sleep.
xoxo

Social democrata LMAO

2009-06-17T23:42:00.000-07:00

So siendo la intolerante que soy sigo odiando al partido social democrata y lei por ahi que la chiva de big brother es su candidata OMFG estan poniendo mi amor a Mexico asi en una delgada linea claro que amo mas a Mexico de lo que odio al socialismo, me parece aberrante que exista gente que cree que el partido ese es cool, claro un partido que ofrezca legalizar las drogas se le va a hacer cool a los drogadictos que quieran drogarse en plena calle que cool, supongo.
Esta ha sido la semana mas inutil de toda mi jodida vida, no he hecho nada mas que ver television, eso quiere decir que ya habre visto todo para el domingo, ya es jueves y no tengo planes el fin de semana, me siento como un asco ugh fatal, pero bueno supongo que me toca descansar o algo asi ay ya ni se deperdido me deberia poner a hacer mi logo o algo para mi puto portafolio ya que todos se obsesionan con eso, al igual deberia obsesionarme.
Hoy platique con mi abuelo, que por alguna razon cree que me quiero ir a estudiar a Inglaterra, weird porque hasta yo me habia olvidado de eso, supongo que la gente tiene muchos planes para mi de los cuales ni yo se, por ejemplo, una maestra de secundaria me pregunto si todavia escribia porque ella siempre penso que yo seria una gran GRAN GRANNN escritora, lo cual creo que fue una fantasia que tuve en secu, que seria una gran escritora, y siempre pensando en diferentes historias, pero todas sin final, poemas bastante emos y palabras demasiado estupidas OMFG ojala pudira olvidar haha, aunque realmente lo hize porque habia olvidado esa etapa, cuando iba a entrar a carrera una maestra de secundaria de nuevo, y una de mis amigas se traumaron porque no iba a estudiar leyes, supongo la verdad soy una persona demasiado creativa para estudiar leyes, pero el punto es que esas personas tmb tenian un plan para mi, y yo tome mi propia desicion, al igual sigo oyendo a mi papa decir que deberia haber estudiado algo de humanidades, y hoy se traumo porque le dije que la unica beca que quiera era la beca a egipto para etudiar arabe, cree que arruinare mi vida por eso hahahtalvez lo haga en fin talvez nisiquiera haga nada de eso, y sea una mama de 2 hijos y un esposo y sea super catolica, maneje una van y vaya todos los domingos a la iglesia, apuesto que eso los haria felices a todos.
Ahora que mi abuelo esta en Monterrey aprovechare para contarle mis cosas del islam se que el sabe de todo asi que espero su opinion.
Por lo tanto subire fotos del social democrata para que se rian un rato

---- si ellas son mujeres haha seguro
feministas porque estan ogts

Kama o Sutra?

2009-06-16T14:39:00.000-07:00

Acabo de hacer un test en el que soy 75% heterosexual, osea que hay 25% de gay hahaha no se porque si la neta me encantan los hombres pero bueno estoy en epoca de experimentacion, si no estuviera rodeada de gente fea that is LOL
En la busqueda de mi nueva identidad en el islam he estado buscando mas cosas de la cosa de la cabeza osea hijab y me he encontrado con gente muy extremista, si algo odio en este universo son los extremistas, como los de el PRD y el Partido Social Democrata. asi que en facebook les puse un mensaje super amigable:
Soy una de las personas mas concientes de mi edad, soy una persona bastante culta, por lo cual se que JAMAS votaria por su partido porque son un "grupo" de drogadictos, ignorantes, sin cultura, que se creen super "cool" por ser "diferentes" solo porque traigan una bandera de apoyo gay y tengan travestis en su "grupo" eso no los hace especiales, sus propuestas son utopicas, son para ignorantes para drogadictos que ahora tendran drogas gratis y bien padre porque ya pagarn impuestos y haran mas clinicas un ciculo perfecto yayy. Legalizar el aborto y prohibir la pena de muerte es algo de lo que ustedes mas critican la "doble moral" matar es matar auqnue sea un feto, llamenme conservadora si quieren, no me importa talvez lo sea, con el gobierno, con el poder no se juega, amo a mi pais y no quisiera que asesinos drogadictos, travestis o cualquier persona sea mi candidato, la politica se estudia y el amor por mexico se enseña desde la niñez.

Me canse me duele demasiado la cabeza

Admito que

2009-06-14T09:23:00.000-07:00

Ya me canse de escribir en ingles. hoy fue un dia muy dramatico, ayer salir con Daniela fue lo mejor me diverti aunque fue extraño y llegue algo tarde a mi casa y me conecte y malacopie y mande inobxes y mensajes odiosos y me vale madres como siempre, la verdad es que deberia ser un poco mas honesta creo.
Vi la pelicula de Wolverine pero OMG que cosa tan estupida solo la vi porque Hugh Jackman esta demasiado yummy yummy.
No quiero regresar a la escuela y pensar que voy a tener otro semestre igual lleno de estres, de gente hipocrita, de posers y wannabes y que no me llevare con nadie porque soy una gorda racista intolerante.
No quiero hacer nada en realidad solo seguir como estoy viendo tv llendo al gym y quemando miles de calorias que ojala y fueran de mi a$$ que en verdad no son de ningun lado ughh
Whatever dejare mis frustraciones para otro dia

Yo consigo lo que sea

2009-06-08T10:07:00.000-07:00

I just went downstairs to boil some eggs, I hopw that with my soon to be new lifestyle boiling eggs won't be the highlight on my day.
I've been pretty sick on the last few days maybe is just stress related but I've been sleeping so bad, I'm always tired and I always want to trow up, this since last friday i wonder maybe I do have a serious thing, either way i won't say anything because I am weird like that.
I am finally out of school and the semester is almost over I still need 3 more grades to know it's all over, but seriously this semester it was such a big big nightmare, I've been hanging with fake people, probably in a school full of posers and wannabes.
One good thing about this desition I made is that if I face competition in the future I won't hesitate about destroying any of them, bittersweet actually.
I'm also super tired of beeing taking for granted and constantly beeing played with I am thinking on what to do about that, but is very simple no one on this universe is good enough to do something for free or because they care, no one sincerely care about the others, and the ones that do are always fooled.
I was speaking to Ahmed regarding good stuff you know halal stuff however we ended up talking about wrong stuff, I guess I can't help myself of he can't help himself mostly because we know eventually we will be together, although he said something that upset me soo much and it made me feel so insecure about our relationship.
I'm officially on vacations so I will blog a lot

Tengo 400 carros 400 motoras

2009-05-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hello and welcome to the jungle, lets get ready to rumble I love Calle 13. I was beging to wonder why in this semester all my final proyects got together and I'm in danger of leaving one of them so I will take it again the next semester wich will be a total NIGHTMARE, first because I can't stand the idea of seeing that biatch again! I bet people are thinking I will bitch about my team mates but no unfortunately I'm not so predictable, I will bitch about myself, because all this things are my fault, if I would have worked harder I wouldn't have this dilemas, and stuff LOL, no I don't know why I forgot that usually when is something due as a team i have to take care of everything or drama occurs, and I don't want no drama ( like Fergie's song)
Life is so fun, and sarcastic sometimes, once you discover stuff sometimes there's no way of looking back, such as when you are desgning everything and you realize that the person you thought was the most talented, steals her vectors and all her friends practically do her works.

OK enough maybe I am a litle envous but not because of the ovious facts I am envious because I always have to do everything on my own, I don't have a magical lover that will do everything for me, and I don't mean I want a man because certainly I don't need more trouble in my life, but I do need some help because even if I learn more I just want a break. Second thought I don't want to be stucked in a "we are not together but I am obsessed with you" relationship or in a "I lack of personality and I take my boyfriend's personality as mine" one so I rather work hard alone

Class beeing Eli

2009-05-27T21:02:00.000-07:00

Today at class I’m sitting totally alone, while the rest of the class are talking and I don’t know maybe talking trash about me, I just don’t care maybe is so much better to be alone than witht the bunch of hypocrites I was getting along with. Things happen for a reason I guess.

Most of people will feel bad if they were like I am right now I really don’t care, and is not that I think that life sucks or anything I love life I just don’t care about the others. Sometimes I think I am more smart and even more beautiful than the rest, although I know is wrong is the only thing I can think that will make sense of all my loneliness: Envy, it could be really simple, I have a good fashion sense, I get things the first time they are explained and I roll eyes at the least provocation.

If I don’t like someone they can tell right away, so I never fake it, truth is I am one of the most real human being ever, I never thought that will be a problem.

I like to believe I am a selective person, that can also be a problem because I don’t like most of people, most of them are not someone I want to loose my time with.

Demasiado de pro

2009-05-22T22:21:00.001-07:00

I can't sleep I am super nervous about the photoshoot tomorrow so far only tragedies have occured I hope I will do well
I got into a dissagrement with a friend because of the photoshoot, she was going to bemy model and canceled because of some class and ruining her perfect score, I don't get how people can be so selfish sometimes while I do everything for my friends they never do anything for me and OMG I'm soooo delayed in my work thanks to ahmed and our baby and all the drama behind the photoshoots
I am currently watching "Girls of the playboy manssion" I know H-A-R-A-M don't even start on that one, what's so funny is that my friend who is teaching me keep saying no to everything I like and I'm not pissed but he seems to say it only to make me angry or give up, I just won't back down.
On the haram stuff allah knows I haven't been good on many aspects what can I do my heart is so full of love waiting for the right person but how many times can I be wrong, aparently a lot. Don't even get me started on the freaks I've met

I think is better if I go to sleep or at least be in my bed

I spoke to ahmed all day
we talk about many things and
I got to see out baby clica

Sin exagerar soy una cosa bar-ba-ra

2009-05-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

I feel like bitching today but since backbiting is not allowed I will do it without the names I was in one of my many shitty classes and people were asking so many things they seem so stupid, sometimes I think I am way smarter than what I think because I always understand things and they don’t, things that are so damn ovious then this stupid obnoxious dude japan and anime lover went asking like 484848 things along with my not so best friend more like my ex best friend I don’t get why they are so stupid.

Anyway to improve my karma I will give classes to poor people cholo people how fun, but I want the experience to learn something from them and wake up early damn but in islam we are taught to help the others maybe I will like it…. NOTTTT but I will try my best not to be a bitch and learn something.

I just had a bubble tea best drink ever :D

Bubble tea & beeing inlove ain't getting any better than this :D

bitching in islam

2009-05-18T16:11:00.000-07:00

Is completely not allowed, so all of you who love me for my honesty are about to loose that (: I bet you won't like me now huh?
Emotionally speaking I am surviving, after the best concert ever ( calle 13) I had to come back to reality wich means to school and my classmates who I am not allowed to speak of now saturday was a nightmare, and even worse when I fall sleep and I couldn't go to my friends pary,mainly because I was partying since thrusday and god knows that wasn't good for my body, that makes me wonder how come there's people who party all weekend I want to do it so bad but I also can't do that I wonder what I can do besides praying wich is also something I can't do at the moment
I wonder why I can't find anything exiting for my future rather than the weekend, maybe if my special someone was here things will be different

Picture of my
beautiful girl clica
she lives with her
sexy dady Ahmed

Calle 13

2009-05-16T17:29:00.000-07:00

Ayer fui al concierto de Calle 13 y una vez mas me demostraron porque son mi banda favorita, con un boleto gratiuto y termine enfrente viendo a rene perez y eduargo cabra y hasta ileana y todos los musicos re guapos fue lo mejor el concierto, el mejor alque he asistido en toda mi puta vida hahahahah estoy re feliz

Nisiquieras las malditas zorras de mi equipo de foto me lo pueden arruinar (:

30 Anivesario/ Clase con Perra Janet

2009-05-13T09:28:00.001-07:00

To call my teache Perla Janet a perra a.k.a a bitch
means to give that insignificant person a lot of credit. Mainly because Perla is the person with the most boring -not to say absent- personality ever, she is not only boring but untidy wich means she doesn't really care how she looks like she is just grubby, unkept, fugly just gross, her
hair is so damn ugly and starting to be gray she does a low ponytail and brushes the hell out of her hair, she always wears the same damn clothes, and one of my so called friend admires her I really don't know why is stupid to neglect the minimum rules of grooming or even a shower!, something tells me I will fail this subject and if that happens the worse is that I will have to see her again for one entire semester AGAIN!

Today's is the university's 30 aniversary and the principal is so proud of her work, to be honest the things we have here are nothing to be proud of.

And I am so damn bored that's just how I see things

Last thing all the fucking otakus are next to me right now and I just want to punch them in the face but I'm scared cuz they could kill me with their japanesse weapon knowledge LOL
gotta runnnn cakeee second thought people ran to it and I'm not that poor to beg for free cake!

Latest news on the life of a star

2009-05-10T20:54:00.000-07:00

Hello this is Elizabeth again, I am not exited whatsoever abotu any of my future assigments, in good news my soccer team is still on the league so I am happy, thus this picture with the team's shirt.
I am recently getting extrememly close to my boiling point and I am 1 inch away on telling everyone what I think about them.

Actually what I really want is just get away from everything and everyone, I am so tired of all the stupid fights, and all the realize who is really your friend and who is not, and knowing that at this point I am probably alone

Y todos los que aman yugioh o como sea se pueden ir mucho a la chingada

xoxo

Eliiii

But is not too late for...

2009-05-06T12:12:00.000-07:00

Another of my extremely cool features is the randomness so I found a couple of pictures that are fun :D
things I defo hate:

Bluetooth: you look stupid

ffs!!

Ugg boots: they are so damn ugly
for rednecks only yayy

Greasy hair: for christ sake
just wash ur hair and style it
is not that hard!

Suspenders: the 90's are so damn
over for real I swear they are

Crocs: Does it really needs an
explanations?

Straight edge: lame bastards hahah
sorry silvano!

Later on today things I do like

bs aside I do feel bad sometimes
either way al the grubby greasy hair socialist can kiss my ass
omg sorry but true hell I love money and capitalism damn you ignorant artists

Is too late

2009-05-06T11:58:00.000-07:00

So as I tought this got me into trouble again speaking my mind out proved once again that is not the solution for my issues. instead i should just shup and and talk about how wonderful life is and how is that everyone is always happy and they never talk to me only when they need something.
In other news I'be been eating like a pig all day al night I think all I do is homework, tv, eating, bitching and one more thing as I stated it before I will never regret what I write because is how I feel at the moment.
Fuck my image, fuck how I will look when I say it I just don't care I rather end up alone than with a bounch of suckers who are just there when I need something (:
In other news I am happy again for there's someone new in my life and this time it will be forever hahha sounds so weird comming from the girl who can't keep a relationship, either way is nothing formal thus I will date other people at the same time
Eli teh head bitch in charge is back and won't look back!

ughhh oh m effing gosh I'm soooooooo stressed I have so many homeworks to do I have days of not sleeping ahead of me god please give me strenght

Maybe I am the problem

2009-05-05T22:11:00.000-07:00

Una vez mas tengo problemas con una "amiga" por algunas diferencias estupidas como lo superficial que soy v.s lo cegada que esta por su novio y cosas asi, cosas que no se dicen pero se sobre entienden, y vayaque soy la persona que mas sobre entiende las cosas, todo empezo hace algunos dias cuando discutimos de nuestras diferencias politicas donde yo soy una persona de derecha y racionaly ella siendo una persona de izquierda aunque en el momento no sabia lo que era izquierda que lo es solo porque su novio se lo dice, y termino en un gran catfight por un guion que no se termino a tiempo pero en verdad lo que su egoista cabello trasquilado me queria decir es que oviamente como persona no me respeta y siempre que quiera algo de mi ahi estara, exacto! cada vez que necesite algo, porque cuando desgraciadamente necesito algo siempre habra algo ma que ella necesite o algo que ocupe mas su atencion
So queridos lectores cosas que no se deben hacer:
1. Endiosarse con su novio solo por un anillito
2. Tratar mal a la HBOC (head bitch on charge) cuando tiene un blog
3. Cortarte el pelo y que segun tuu sea colo
4. Meterte con la bitch on charge for real great mistake
5. Tomar sola that's just lame hahahah
6. Call the wrong people for bitching hahhaha

reading in the dark

2009-04-28T22:35:00.000-07:00

So as I stay home for the endless pig flu this is only the second day of our 1 week quarantine and people are starting to get really crazy thinking it's a weird evil plan over the goverment to hide stuff from us, then again my heartbeats are completely of my beloved country Mexico, I love my nation and I know this not what is happening, it is sad that they are taking so long to fix it but that doesn't mean that the goverment is making secret plans to end with my beautiful country.
Me beeing a studdborn right sided person only see this as a left orientated goverment that is always trying to call the atention in the most desesperate ways, worse is my country is full of ignorants and artists who are always agains everything and they think that pig flu is fake untill someone they know gets it of course, sad and pathetic.

Moving on right now I am reading my systems of islam books is kind of hard to understand but I amtrying hard basically because I lost a lot of time in the past and because I want to impress my new friend/teacher/time will tell that is giving me the links and classes but something tells me he wont think I did a lot of progress I am keepng my fingers crossed! ( I know I shouldn't say that because it's like saying it gives power to the crosses but I don't know any other sake)

Moving on life is totally boring on quarantine, and I think aybe because of that I am falling inlove again I bet it must be the fact that I don't do anything I met amazing people this week

I will continue to read

Cronica de una muerte anunciada

2009-04-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

So aparently my beloved soccer team is out of the league, is almost official, I hate to admit it, but it really hurts it hurts that bad I will start this entry in spanish

Hola soy Eli y si soy tigre, lo he sido desde que descubri lo que era el futbol (soccer) he ido tantas veces al estadio, y he sido muy feliz en muchas ocaciones, me trae lindos recuerdos ir con mi familia al estadio o los inicios de temporada, ver el clasico.

Lo admito, y no me importa lo que pienses, he llorado, aunque solo una vez y nadie me vio, era una final y la perdimos.

Lo importante es que he sido muy feliz y he visto pasar a muchos buenos jugadores por el equipo, muchos buenos juegos, buenos momentos y simplemente algo que une a mi familia, por tonto que suene.

Tengo muchos recuerdos pero sobre todo fue la primera vez que fui al estadio, no se que año fue exactamente pero jugaba Luis Hernandez, a.k.a "El matador" todos decian que era bueno, yo no se de eso, la primera vez que fui no recuerdo si ganaron o perdieron la verdad, fue lo de menos, disfrute mucho el juego y no podia esperar para ver el siguiente (aunque fuera por tele porque no vivia en monterrey en esos tiempos)

Y con el tiempo empeze a querer mas a el equipo es algo raro de explicar como algo como el futbol se puede querer, pero asi sucedio cuando menos me lo espere ya estaba yo completamente enamorada, me gustaba ver los juegos,y desde ahi auqnue me he perdido varios siempre me preocupo por saber el resultado y leer por ahi una cronica.

Y digo todo esto con nostalgia porque siento que aunque no lo quiera y aunque nadie lo quiera el equipo dejara de existir, y solo me refiero a primera division, porque el equipo existira por siempre para sus seguidores, no pienso quejarme como todos los demas, pues yo si apoyo a mi equipo incondicionalmente.

Es mas bien un sentimiento como de estar defraudado, es raro ver que las personas que te representan en el equipo no sientan lo mismo que tu, que no sientan lo que significa para nosotros representar al equipo, aunque nosotros solo los veamos.

Es triste ver que algo en lo que yo en verdad creia se este desvaneciendo ante mi, y si yo seguire apoyando, pero no apoyo las desiciones que se han tomado ultimamente el el club, no apoyo a mis representantes que se han encargado de arruinarme los sabados por la noche, y si seguire viendo todos los juegos porque yo si estoy comprometida con el equipo.

No entiendo en realidad porque pasa lo que esta pasando, sera porque ellos no saben lo que es para muchos comprar la camiseta del equipo, ellos la tienen gratis.

Lo digo con nostalgia pero con esperanza de que alguno sienta la misma emocion que todos nosotros, y sientan amor y entiendan la responsabilidad que tienen al representar a la institucion, pensar asi talvez sea muy ingenuo y se que hay muchas cosas atras que probablemente nadie de nosotros conozca pero espero en verdad que alguno de los que se hacen llamar jugadores, tecnicos, etc etc sienta algun dia el amor y orgullo que siente la gente hacia tigres

Se despide Eli un poco cansada y sorry por la falta de acentuacion

Simply Red is simply not cute I rather O saya

2009-04-18T17:32:00.000-07:00

So I was starting to get really curious about this red head I saw in a music store called simply red so as a good stalker I went ahead and check his myspace only to see he is not so cute as in the album cover, he is old honestly, and his music is so so so damn gay. If I want to hear corny stff I rather listen it from a hot Hindi man LOL I rather watch bollywood than listening to another whitey boy crying over love.

So yes gay music is my bitching thing now, whiteys are no longer a matter of interest to me I rather support the radicals like my hero M.I.A noone can pwn her she is the best and will always be the very best :)

M.I.A! @ grammy 9 months pregnant
gave an aawesome performance

Friday was the best with marykay and yolis we had tons of fun palomas, painted nails travesti style LOL, some cool tatooes I got usher on my breast LOL, we had a blast

Special thanks to kei for blogging about that'shideous.com :D

Mi malteada nananana

2009-04-17T19:29:00.001-07:00

nanana The Eli is waiting for her dear friend Mariela to come and get her so they can all go out and drink... cofee.

This is my new life eys without any bad things :D

Anyway I am tired of waiting but I have nothing else to do because is spring break and my laptop died so since I don't have my laptop I don't get to do my assigments.

So Yesterday Ahmed F. ( not my ex) told me he was supposed to play soccer and he always lost if he won he said it was because of me.

Ahmed R. ( my ex) told me he can forget everything no matter how important it was everything turns into memories.

I wonder what Ahmed I would prefer? and most important I wonder how that game ended!!

In other stuff I decided I am back into unsensitive bitch mode so wait for a very special entry whenever someone makes me upset

ANyway Mary Kay is on her way home wich is less than 5 min so I g2g

Love tequila and sex

Eli

P.S To all the drinking people take a tequila shot on my name because I can't do any D:

I wish I could Jai Ho all night

2009-04-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

Again beeing in the mood for all the things I can not get.

Today was the longest day so far I hate to type in the dark, so as I previously mention things you should not do I stayed in

2. Beeing on denial is probably the worse but is up to you guys I think that there are some people that are worth the wait,

3. Waiting like 2 weeks to get a hello kitty plate and not gettin g it for the photoshoot you will do in two weeks that have been keeping you awake

4. Depending on others: is easy people are never there when you really really need them, people don't have a reason to be with you unless they need something. I believe I am the only person in this universe that talks to people when I don't need anything I am the only one who cares about people for real, not expectinmg anything back, because I know none of the people I've ever met will give me anything back.

5. Never fall inlove, I was the happiest kid beeing a careless bitch CARELESS now I am sad pathetic and I think a lot.

Next post what you should do

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I was emo once

Oh, Shiva, I just talked to them

2009-04-16T14:07:00.001-07:00

Hello dear invisible readers:

Welcome to another painful entry on your favorite blog forever and ever, today we will talk about things you should not do on the regular basis:
1. drink lots of cofee: last night I had the very first side effect of cofee ( apart from the uber small titties) I was awake untill 3 am looking at the sky of my room yes the ceeling, all night long, well thinking about many things and improving my comunication with gosx turns out I getting good at it.
2. Be on denial
I will continue later because my father loves to interrupt me when I blog

Goodtimes & Sunglasses

2009-04-14T15:22:00.000-07:00

Everytime I have a good time I happen to wear sunglasses,recently I have wore sunglasses a lot but I haven´t got a goodtime, I miss people but people oviouslt doesn´t miss me so I listen to atlernative music to forget, I am starting to feel really depressed everytime I eat and that´s realy weird I have to admit. I miss going out and having a good time, just do stuff without thinking, beeing unresponsible was the best thing that could ever happen to me, kissing without loving, touching without caring, those were the good days and they are long gone, just one more tequila shot to end the night, and now my nights are just lame, Who do I blame? should I blame my friends for they total absence, should I blame my school for taking all my free time? hell no I should blame myself for becoming this sad pathetic excuse of good girl that has taken me away from almost everyone I know. I feel that noone likes me anymore and it's a shame because the only thing that changed is that I don't party like a rockstar anymore so that means that is nto worth it to miss those people.
Lately I've been reflexing a lot mainly on the fact that I take my dog for a walk everyday 1 hour of taning for me 1 hour of thinking and 1 hour of workout for fifi I was trying to get a picture of her but I don't know why I couldn't find any, anyway is almost time for me to go to the gym, and yesterday I was feeling sooo soo bad so dizzy so I almost didn't do anything. I think my blog was funnier when I just made fun of everyone I don't know if I just grew up or I am back to beeing a closet bitch I don't even know if that word exists.

My Chia pet Nigga is slowly dying I talked to him last night and he didn't said anything

Peace
Eli

Spring Break Aloha... not!

2009-04-08T10:58:00.000-07:00

It's your favorite girl Eli, making an update on the most boring vacations EVER I should do homeworks but I refuse instead I listen to a little bit of alternative music with lots of guitars, yes yes electrifying, or I see tv, or I take fifi our for a walk, anyway the gym is something I always do, at least it keeps me a little bit more active, today I had hot cakes for breakfast eww ew they were yummy but I couldn't stop eating.
Yesterday I was listening to beatles "1" so I thought why not write something to Ahmed I already sent it I hope it turns out the way I want it to work

I was listening to my cd of the calling “camino palmero” I listened to it so many times my computer won´t read it anymore wich sucks I wanted to sing along with the dude that sings on track 12 as if I drinked at least 2 or 3 shots of tequila, this is the third time I try to introduce it yayy it worked, anyway there’s a lot of time to get to track 12.

In the last couple of days there has been so much drama around me, drama of my friends, my family, my ex & me, the other day I found myself walking around contry, which is a hmm a neighborhood in Monterrey, I visited a friend and we talked about everything that has been happening in our lives, she had a problem that reminded me of the ones I had last December at the most hypocritical party I´ve ever been to, yes I´m still a Hispanic teleservices hater.

Track 12 is here I´m singing my special song “ So lately been wondering who will be there to take my place” I lay in my bed and sing it I imagine you next to me hugging me, and at that moment everything is perfect, I imagine your arms aroung me, everything is so real and I wish this moment could last forever. Then again I open y eyes and find the truth I am alone in my room writing this to my blog so I can laugh about this in2 years.

Later on I want to play videogames since I like never ever play and I certainly need something new to do. I am bored and waiting for a repply for the email

I've been readying the Quran I just hope I am understanding it

Cambio y fuera //// ELi

Christmas!! I miss you

I need to move on

2009-04-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

For the sake of my mental sanity I need to move on and forget everything that bounded me to who I was, I need to be a new person, someone better, someone everybody likes, if I´m good people plays with me, if I am a bitch people talk about me, either way noone will ever know the true me, not even my closest friends know the real me, only one person knows me completely and I wish he never did, he knows how to hurt me, he knows exactly what buttons to push, and I am tired of beeing vulnerable, I am tired. Today after the worse incident ever I went to a friend´s house, we had the best talk ever I felt bad about all the missunderstandings from the past, I know our frienship is for real, and for that I am really thankful

They drink?

2009-04-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

I need many many things lately I am so confused I just want to see things clearly

Cupcakes & Milkshakes hosted by our favorite diva Hidalgo

2009-04-02T10:39:00.000-07:00

Again my favorite day with my favorite diva Hidalgo, he got late as usual, just to teach us we have to wait for our “customer” but he is not my customer and he doesn’t have my respect not now not tomorrow, anyway I am back to my “shut up and smile” look so I don’t get in trouble as I usually do, what is tremendously impossible that my logo lost in the competition, well first no surprise because people are usually really tacky and my brand was really something else, I mean not just because it has all the colors on it and some “I draw kinder garden style” illustrations doesn’t mean is the best, I can tell that one of the brands was actually better than mine, but the other one ( I won’t say names because is like more people read this and I don’t want to look like a nasty bitch)
I have some “please keep your mouth shut” issues but I never learn from them.
So I was looking at this dating website just for fun, so I could find my Muslim prince but so far is not working, I’ve always thought website dating is just pathetic but I did it to make one of my friend’s happy. I am convinced there's noone in this universe for me.
I spoke to Ahmed again smply because I just can't stay away from that bastard!

nana na na na the boys are waiting

2009-03-31T10:20:00.000-07:00

New days and the worse images run through my head for starters one of my classmates crack! What’s up with that? Do they think that showing the plomer’s crack is super hot and we will love them just for showing their “gluteos”

The last couple of days I finished the first book ( it was 24 pages long) and after that I felt super sleppy and took a long nap, reading about islam is not boring but is hard to understand many words Ijust don’t speak Arabic and I won’t speak it in a long time at least until I graduate from college.

Again at my favorite class we are learning how to make our brand 1cm wich has been a big fail for us because we have printed it like 10 times and now he is giving us the instructions for the final thingy I just realize that he enjoy humiliating people and I like to act like I am stupid, I am not stupid for the record but I like to pretend I am with this teacher he enjoys making fun of me and I enjoy playing with people, as sick as it may sound LOL

As days passes by my heartbreak hurts a little less, I am already looking at other people, but I am not recovered, I just look to forget, I think eventually I will find someone for me, but I don’t feel like I will love someone again, for me now a relationship is like a contract is not love but someone who will help you, is not passion

This is me getting my tan in
Japon pon!!

Bumps on my dough!

2009-03-29T22:15:00.000-07:00

That's how I can define my life at the moment, poor dad he is in so much pain I wonder how is is right now because since I stayed with him on the hopsital yesterday I got to come home to sleep tonight, I will sleep when I finish this post I am sooo damn sleppy, I have to admit since this thing of my dad happened I can see who are my real friends a.k.a the ones who care and that will be only 3 and those 3 already know who they are p.s if you have no clue on what I am talking about that means you areoviously not included on those 3, well I won't judge I mean usually I'm the last one to know things.
With all this stuff going on I haven't got any time to read any of the books I downloaded, I put this picture up first cuz I'm super proud of myself I got this headscarf together although is not like an actualy headscarf. Second because I am getting mixed reactions, today my mom was so angry because I told her of the headscarf she thinks that's like humilliating for a woman but I find it good I mean for me is respect to god and apreciation of the beautiful body he gave to me.
Noone got my into this I didn't even knew my ex when I learned about islam but now everyone thinks I am beeing brainwashed.
Speaking of (Ahmed) the last conversation we had was a total failure, we will never get back together, I finally see his true colors and I think I finally get why we are not together it was the best for me.
Now I don't want to go to school is like pffft so boring but just this week and then freedom for 2 weeks my goal is to know how to pray in those 2 weeks.
Today the weirdest thing happened a guy came to ask us for money because supposely he got beaten and shit I got paranoid and remembered "A clockwork orange" Now I can't sleep tho Iam tired as I've never been before I just keep imagining someone comes in is like what can we do in that care well... nothing just hope for the police come really quick because we have an alarm system damn i want to listen to system of a down ( totally random)
No matter how much of a good girl I am trying to be I still have some defects and that will be GUYS I can't stop looking I wonder if that is wrong I bet it is, I am listening to like weird music I got beacause one of my cousins and I went to see infected mushroom as mentioned in previoud notes and I really really liked one of the guys that were playing that would be skazi and first I like his music I don't know why and second because he is cute in a "look at me I look like a psyco kind of way.

I adoreee ADORE the msn song hahaha I always get like 0.o? when I heart it

P.S Nigga is growning so much I love him he is the best chia pet ever!

What's usually missing?

2009-03-28T10:56:00.000-07:00

As I listen to Hawaii music I do something I shouldn't have done ask something you shouldn't ask to the only person in the universe you shouldn't speak to, so then the most akward answers follows and I stay with the same heartache and I ask even more questions as I mentioned in previous notes I am a girl who is asking all the wrong things in all the wrong times.
And then I go and tell him about all the good things I do, like he acts like cares I know he doesn't. I should have followed everyone's good advice and just not go there, just stay away from this akward moment that leaves me breathless my hands are shaking like they never did

I will visit my dad later I'm baking now

It's Friday and I'm inlove.... NOT!!

2009-03-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

Today I had one of the creppiest days of my life first of at school everything was great actually I'm finally dealing with most of my teachers in a possitive way and today it was Mr. FAV contest wich was relaly awesome but my friend Sam and I had to go because we were supposed to have lunch at Yamato, it was really awesome and my day was perfect till then food was really perfect and Sr. Jorge gave us the best roll I ever had. I didn't carry my cellphone with me because I thought I lost it so it was almost impossible to reach me.
Around 3 pm my sister called my friend Sam and she hands the phone to me I pick up and first thing she says "Dad is at the hospital" I swear I felt like I almost faited my blood went down to my feet and god I thought so many things, then she adds "Do not worry he was only hit by a car" WTF! Do not worry!
She had spoke to him previously and he was aparently fine I didn't knew anything because I was incomunicated so I came inmediately back home and we went to the hospital I saw my poor dad in the bed with a cast on his leg and almost inmediately they took him to surgery about 2 or 3 hours later he was out now he is comming back of it and I'm not there because mom took me home, but tomorrow I will bake vanilla cupcakes to him so he can feel better (:
I just hope everything ends up well I can't sleep and I need to because I've been awake for 21 hours

Once upon a time there was a girl named Eli

2009-03-26T12:41:00.001-07:00

Regarding Islam my friend Meto introduced me to his friend ahmed ( that will be my 5^th ahmed that I know) well I have to say seems he is going to very helpful he is going to be helping me with my prayers. I’m looking everywhere for a head scarf so I can do my prayers I don’t want to put just a fabric in my head, and I’m happy with my clothes research I found most of the things I was looking for big shirts and I found some scarves but they were super mega colorful is not that much modest I’m just looking for a black head scarf I’m happy I’ve got a lot of dresses at least I have stuff I can wear to school and when I go out, people say by dressing up I won’t magically become a Muslim but at least I’m working on it, of course I’m reading the Quran and trying to understand it, reading online books and getting more Muslim contacts.

Unfortunately in Mexico Islam is not a very popular religion and people are full of misconceptions created by the Catholics I remember when I was in middle school I studied in a catholic church and my teachers took about one month on talking about all the bad things other religions and believing do I remember they were so hard on Islam, they said awful things they showed us some movies about Iran, I was so scared and I couldn’t believe what I was looking at, of course at the time I didn’t understand most of the things I saw in the video I was just scared, there was a husband beating his wife, poor woman she always got beaten, and she hated Islam, they showed us also pictures of woman wearing the niqab that also scared me, but again I didn’t understand much of what I was looking at, I was young and being in a catholic school they don’t believe in respect to other cultures. I remember I thought something was wrong about the teachings they gave to us I just didn’t knew what it was but I just felt it.

When I entered to high school and left catholic school behind I had a lot of questions because all my life I’ve known only one side of the story of Islam and all I had was misconceptions and prejudice I couldn’t understand Muslim people or their beliefs, so later on I got an assignment of different religions besides christens and I have to admit it was interesting I felt very curious about it on that time I got to investigate Buddhism but I remember Islam was one of the options, I didn’t get that one because it was totally random, either way out of my curiosity I decided to investigate all of them not very deeply just a little bit, so that’s all I did of course it left me with more questions that I could have ever imagined, but I left all the investigations and moved on. I always kept in mind that I wanted to keep researching unfortunately I was kind of scared of all the interest I showed on other religions and I decided to get to know better my own religions Catholicism at the time I went to church every Sunday I prayed I look for answers all the time, unfortunately all I felt was a lack of information and a big lack of respect for god. I stopped trying.

On university one day I was looking at YouTube videos about Christ I was still trying to find my faith in what my parents told me, because it wasn’t easy for me I didn’t knew how they would react I didn’t wanted to be different I tried my best to stick with what I knew, I was sure they were going to think that I only did things to find more attention or something like that, because I’ve always been the type of girl that does a lot of research and always has questions, I guess I’ve always been like a small kid with questions about everything.

So anyway watching those videos one of the links was about a catholic woman- actually she was Mexican like me- who converted to Islam I couldn’t believe what I saw the first thing that got my attention was the security and happiness that she showed, of course I was kind of scared because she was wearing a hijab ( head scarf) and the respect and love she showed to god, instantly I said I wanted to be like her there in front of me was the answer of all I’ve been looking for.

This time I decided I was not going to be scared, and from that day I started researching and I did not stopped, every video I saw was a proof to me that I found what I was looking for, it was making me very happy I felt more secure every day I felt I had something that I loved reading about something that will answer all my questions. Now I understand some of the things because there’s a lot to learn I understand why the head scarf and I can’t wait to find one so I can wear it, I understand the reason of everything and the more I find the more I like it.

In my future I look forward to know enough to teach other people my wish is for everyone to know Islam in a good way to erase all the misconceptions in my country to make people feel they way I did when I saw the video, I think the best thing to have in information and having all your questions solved, of course I respect other type of views, I know people find this feelings in other religions and that’s fine I won’t mess with them. In a longer future I hope I am recognized by studying Islam and I hope people know me for being a good Muslim woman I hope I can teach and finally I hope to make a difference in the world of Islam, all of this will take time I know but I’m willing to give all my life for it.

At the moment I am just a beginner I don’t know a lot, but I want to thank all the people that have been helping me with information I know god will reward you for that.

Today at class

2009-03-26T12:31:00.000-07:00

Today at my class with my favorite teacher Hidalgo was as usual bragging about his talents and lecturing us so we can feel ignorant which is awesome, at least now I have enough patience to bare with it, my problem is I’m so expressive he can see in my face that I totally dislike him. Today I have to study a lot for my culture test tomorrow with my teacher Benito, I like him he is cute in an “I’m so weird” kind of way.

From now on I will blog in English because I’m forgetting how to write and talk in a proper way, yesterday I didn’t look at any video of Ahmadinejad because I’m starting to like him a lot and is SO not right but he is so amazingly persuasive I believe him when he says holocaust is a myth!

Today will be a lazy ass day I will sleep all afternoon and study in the night and in the gym it doesn’t matter if I lose my sight for reading on the workout machines.

Napoleon Bonaparte / In Iran we do NOT have this fenomenon

2009-03-24T20:19:00.000-07:00

Y que me sale el en un test que soy el no me sorprendio todo el mundo sabe que soy una narcisita, egosita, elitista de lo peor
veo videos de

Ahmadinejad

love forever and ever

" As for woman is not a crime to be a woman, woman are the ebst creature created by god, womans are respected in Iran, in Iran every family that's given a girl there are 10 times happier, woman are more respected than man, in an irnaian culture man and sons and girls constantly kiss the hands of their mother as a sign of respect and we are proud of this culture"
I wish I was iranian

Homophobia and all that B.S aside in my heart I know I want a leader like him I admire him I want to meet him and stuff I'm naive in that but I know if I want it bad enough it will happen

Promesas y mas promesas

2009-03-24T16:48:00.000-07:00

No entiendo a mi heroe Florentino Ariza, como tenia tanta paciencia despues de que Fermina se casó, como puede tener tanto amor para no morir de la desesperación, yo muero y muero lentamente. Ya se que es una novela pero yo se que puedo hacer el mismo sacrificio. No entiendo en verdad el nervio de acero y el amor interminable cuando yo siento que en mi corazón no cabe tanto.

Hoy fui a HEB y compre una nieve muy cara y tenia chingos de hielo que coraje porque yo soy bien freak de la nieve asi que me caga que tenga hielos, creo que aprendere a hacer nieve aunque sea a mano vilmente, por eso empeze a hornear porque me cagsaban todos los cupcakes que ya existian. Hoy tome la siesta y ya no pude hornear bien IDIOTA! es que la verdad aunque no lo quiera aceptar todo esto de ahmed me afecto mas de lo que creia en verdad no lo creo pero estoy de que no quiero hacer nada solo dormir y nada me entusiasma nisiquiera lo de los brownies que ya aprendi a hacer no se porque es asi pero bueno.
No se porque pero presiento que en los proximos dias mi fidelidad eterna va a tener una prueba, la prueba mas desisiva, no se porque presiento que no la voy a pasar.
Ya estoy divagando mucho y tengo que hacer un analisis de un cuento.
Pero es que no entiendo como las cosas pueden cambir de un dia a otro.
En mi vida diaria no se no tengo ganas de hacer nada

Cambio y fuera

Talvez me inspire

2009-03-23T19:53:00.000-07:00

Tal vez las cosas pasen por algo. Yo soy Helena de la broma, soy la que se aferra al partido comunista porque el partido es el único que le ha mostrado fidelidad, soy Teresa de la insoportable levedad del ser, la que le tiemblan las manos ante la incertidumbre. Soy la que es fiel, la que siempre esta ahí, pero también soy la temible e insegura, soy la que ama aunque sabe que va a ser traicionada.
Cansada de mi lastimoso estado de víctima e inspirada por la música de hawaii me olvido de todo y empiezo de nuevo, me aferro a mi partido: el islam, me aferro a lo único que no me ha fallado: mi negocio ( aunque a veces no nos va tan bien) Me aferro a dios que es todo lo que tengo y me aferro a la disciplina que esta descion toma y quiero ser la mejor persona que haya pisado la tierra, solo para demostrarte lo que te pierdes, pero definitivamente soy Florentino Ariza soy la que te jura amor y fidelidad eterna, la que te entrego el alma y va a esperar todo lo que sea necesario para cuando estes con ella. Sentada se va a esperar.
Hay cosas que distraen a Florentino hay cosas que me distraen, pero sere fuerte para ti fui, soy y sere Florentino Ariza la eterna enamorada.

Asi va a ser mi negocio
enjoy!

Hawaii

2009-03-23T15:13:00.000-07:00

Pero que buena musica que escuchan alla me gustaria estar disfrutando del sol lejos de toda la gente de Monterrey que la verdad me enferma tanta gente tan falsa, pero creo que gente falsa hay en todos lados y ni en hawaii me librare de ellos, sigo sintiendome vacia, seria mejor ser asimilada y ser como los demas, ser falsa, fumar y tomar por ser cool, ser una chica comun toda pendeja sin opinion propia sin personalidad, ser una idiota wannabe cool, aunque estoy deacuerdo que aveces soy wannabe rara vez cuando quiero o necesito algo talvez no soy wannabe solo soy una perra egoista manipuladora.

Hasta que nos encontremos de nuevo mi amor, hasta ese dia sabre que todo lo que voy a hacer en los proximos años tuvo sentido. Aunque actuo por mi, por demostrar que puedo ser diferente, cambio porque quiero olvidar, porque todavia no siento mi corazon y siento que algo me fue arrebatado me levanto y me falta algo, ya no pienso en ti todo el dia ni espero para poder verte ya no hago nada que me recuerde a ti, ni pienso que eres diferente, mis planes cambiaron del dia a la mañana y duele saber que asi sera para siempre. Te voy a olvidar pero siempre estare contigo porque te di mi corazon y nunca me diste el turo asi que te quedas con dos y yo con ninguno. No te deseo ningun mal, jamas lo hare porque te amo y te ame como a ningun otro y contigo cierro esa etapa de mi vida en la que ame y me amaste, contigo se acaba el amor y empieza una nueva vida.

Quiero aprender a tejer
compeltare mi estado
celibe

Nigga en plena pubertad y dolores de cabeza

2009-03-22T16:22:00.000-07:00

Todo el dia me ha dolido la cabeza no se porque y dormi demasiadas horas siento como que me falta algo en verdad me siento vacia siento que algo murio en mi, me levante y me puse ropas holgadas me senti fodonga y ya me puse una playera mas pegadita y unos jeans sueltos playeras de kitty cualquier cosa que me haga feliz. Mi cabeza me va a explotar, quiero volver a ser la insensible de antes

¿Y el Sabado?

2009-03-21T17:33:00.000-07:00

El sabado me di cuenta de que absolutamente todas las personas son iguales, no hay diferentes, no hay esa persona especial que es mejor que yo , todos somos la misma mierda.
Mis lagrimas son tan saladas no se poruqe.. si alguien lee esto diganme porque las lagrimas saben saladas pero bueno nunca pense que podia llorar tanto, y no es por perder a el amor de mi vida, si no por darme cuenta de que en verdad no existe ninguna persona buena, no existe nadie mas bueno que yo, que todos los planes que tenia ya han cambiado y que ya no se que voy a hacer.
Me siento como una niña sin cono de nieve, siento que me quitaron todo, no solo mi amor si no mis esperanzas, lo que mas me duele es la decepcion, lo que mas me duele es que soy demasiado estupida DEMASIADO, que no se nada de la vida que soy demasiado ingenua que todos me ven la cara de pendeja. Tengo 20 años siento que tengo el corazon de una niña de 5 que soy debil y que todo me lastima, siento que ahora si voy a aprender y juro ( publicamente porque todos lo veran) que nunca voy a demostrar lo que siento y que jamas volvere a amar realmente a nadie porque no hay ninguna persona que lo valga, la situacion no lo vale, de que sirve amar tanto solo duele, duele mas de lo que se disfruta, disculpen el pesimismo pero ya soy oficialmente posmoderna.
Nada podria explicar
mejor como me
siento

Viernes de hongos infectados Sabado de comer nieve en depresion

2009-03-21T14:35:00.000-07:00

Ayer fui al concierto gig tocada de infected mushroom fue lo mejor de lo mejor tanta energia es indescriptible fue uno de los mejores conciertos de mi vida me la pase de lo mejor ambiente chido la verdad pero no lleve camara asi que no tengo evidencia mas que mis recuerdos , nunca pense lo que sucederia al dia siguiente. Para no arruinar mi entrada lo escribire en entradas difernetes. En resumen el concierto fue lo mejor del año 2009 ( despues de la pelicula de slumdog millionare) y claro que porsupuesto que los volveria a ver

Pames Huachichiles y Jonacez

2009-03-19T10:38:00.000-07:00

Estoy muy desorientada aparentemente no se los puntos cardinales el maestro Benito nos da las respuestas del examen y me termino el agua de Claudia a.k.a Sam, el dia de hoy el divo de la fav a.k.a Hidalgo nos felicito por nuestro trabajo no se porque en realidad y yo blogeo como la blogger que soy me enctanta bloggear en clase despues preguntare por los apuntes. Sam me torcio :S Bueno en fin como decia ayer compuse uan cancion sobre el tequila y no me la puedo sacar de la cabeza hoy me quedare hasta las 4 claro que quiero perrear por eso y viendo documentales ojalaa y esten interesantes ojala y no duren las cuatro horas
Nota rapida basicamente
Cambio y fuera vatos
P.S tengo dinero de cupcakes YEAHHH moldes time
Regrese estoy en un salon super chiquito con 400 personas y huele tannnn mal puse foto de M.I.A porque la amo masivamente en una forma no lesbica empiezo a pensar que me atraen los terroristas.
Problemas de Eli: ser completamente incapaz de aceptar a las personas super extrañas que hacen cosas raras como artes marciales Oh BRB ahora en el salon me explican de que se va a tratar mi examen final, no creo, me parece sureal que en u grupo de tantas personas NADIE me hable, se que soy muy odiosa pero estas personas nisiquiera se han dado el lujo de conocerme, porque en verdad digo que es un lujo pues no le hablo a cualquiera. Tengo 32 horas para trabajar.
Estoy nerviosa la verdad mis compañeros no les confio aunque yo se que tengo talento pero eso n es suficiente.
NERVIOS no quiero modelos feas

M.I M.I M.I.A!!!!
All I want to do it
bang bang bang caching
and take ur money

Bombay Beats & Iranian Radio

2009-03-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

Me estreso y luego escucho musica hindu. Me molesta saber que mañana tengo que tomar clase con el estupido wannabe diva de Hidalgo y que probablemente todo mi equipo cargue con la carga de que yo me le puse "rebelde" y luego me caga como todos parecen muy asustados por lo que hidalgo puego llegar a decir y hacer hasta me dijeron "Hidalgo no olvida" como si fuera un enorme drama, si a ese hombre su tiempo ya se le paso y no lo puede aceptar. Me va a dar demasiada risa cuando vea esto y me de cuenta de que soy una inmadura.
Me aburri de India y ahora escucho de Iran, es que como me gusta presidente y asi :3 pinches crushes raros que tengo pero se ve tan asi de aww aunque sea extremista y odie a los judios, pero bueno ya saben que yo tambien soy una perra extremista y no odio a los judios pero tampoco me caen bien.
Uno de mis deseos ocultos ( o ni tanto) es ser musulmana pero de eso hablaremos en otra entrada.
Ahora mismo escribo una carta para ahmed para sacar mi estres deberas que extraño sus buenos consejos. Y me ire a dormir o tendre arrugas. Mañana me esperan cuatro horas seguidas de clase teorica de fotografia. Soy bruta para la teoria
Mañana tambien entregare un pedido de cupcakes FELICIDAD! me gusta cuando mi negocio va bien, solo espero que tambien se vendan con Mr. Copy eso es mas dificil, si no terminare dandoselos gratis a mis amigos eso quiere decir perdida total. Deseenme suerte

Sonrisa de politico
extremista de "Te matare"
El poder me seduce

xoxo
Gossip Girl ;D

Es Anwar de Skins y es millonario!

2009-03-17T11:44:00.000-07:00

Para saciar mi sed de arabes /hindus/ cualquier cosa diferente a mi me pasaron ese dato y ahora vere skins. Ahora escucho a Vanexxa una loquilla española que canta bien chido, si si yo yu mi musica urbana under se me hace que es medio gay ( vaya como todo mi ambiente y todos los que me rodean) La cancion habla sobre idealizar a las personas, y vaya que pasa todo el tiempo me temo que idealize a ahmed y que en verdad sea otro cabron bueno eso es imposible, facebook no funciona y como me caga D: ahora si FAILBOOK que seguramente lo hackearon y me choca la gente hater sin quehacer. Como mi profesor hidalgo que hoy me termino por colmar la panciencia y como soy bien pinchemente expresiva noto que le hize cara de "se puede ir mucho a la mierda y ojala se lo violen diez enanos en el infierno meintras lo graban y lo venden a gente tan enferma como usted comprendera" y me dijo un sermon sobre los clientes y stuff para lo cual son cosas que ya se ovio a un cliente no le voy a hacer caras porque me va a dar lana y el no me da absolutamente nada.
Creo que estoy desarrollando un problema de personalidad algo grave pues he soltado a eli mala y ya no quiere entrar talvez siempre fui asi pero nunca lo quise aceptar solo quiero no meterme en problemas pero es tan inutil porque ya no me callo putaaa putaa y re puta no me callo todo lo digo casi casi sin procesar porque siento que esos son los pensamientos genuinos.
Le ha crecido mucho pelo a nigga y sigo esperando a que le crezca mas para poderle hacer cortes chidos como el que traigo ahoritahehe
Ayer fui tan floja no fui al gym pero hoy si ire y creo que hare cardio por los dos dias aparte necesito sacar todo el estres.
Mi problema ha sido y siempre sera mi baja pero bajisima tolerancia a los pendejos,no puedo estar en un cuarto donde haya alguien mas diva que yo simplente termina en drama si... soy uan diva Y QUEEE Y QUEE Y QUEEE

‹---- Amo esa foto masivamente
y a los hindus ya a los espantados
forever L-O-V-E-L-Y

Cambio y fuera

Eli nocturna osaya listener

2009-03-17T00:50:00.000-07:00

No quiero cambiar mis habitos de dormir pero cada dia me duermo mas tarde hasta tengo una rutina especifica en dormirme tarde meh asi es la vida de un wannabe diseñador.
A estas horas y por platicas que he tenido me pregunto porque siempre tengo que salir con los hombres mas pinchemente patanes excepto ahmed por supuesto me preugnto porque no leha salido el cobre ya que lo conozco desde hace tanto tiempo, sera porque en nuestra relacion extraña yo soy la patan, yo soy pa pinche yo soy el hombre la maldita lo peor, no se porque no me deja si el si que ya me vio en todas mis facetas, sera talvez porque es cierto y estamos destinados a estar juntos por siempre ñoñamente.
Estoy traumada con Bollywood y con mi blog creo que soy super exhibicionista porque dejo que todos lean y vean lo que siento y me gusta hahahaaha
Me voy a dormir me espera un examen para el cual no estudie y en verdad quiero el cd del soundtrack de slumdog millionare amo la peli la musica TODO

Imagen donde todos bailan bien felices bollywood style jura ame al actor ahi *¬*

Nigga travels in a paper plane

2009-03-16T15:05:00.000-07:00

Mi pequeño Nigga mi mascota comprada a los indigenas que se apoderaron de la fabulosa fav esta porfin teniendo pelo, a mi vida solo le tomo 1 semana y yo pesaba que jamas le iba a crecer estoy lista para que tenga los mejores cortes de pelo haha que emocion :D
Estoy escuchando a M.I.A y bueno ella me encanta me dicen que es terrorista bueno talvez seria bueno que todos lo fueramos especialmente en algunos paises a.k.a U.S.A porque en verad creo que tener a un negro de presiente no les va a ayudar a mucho aunque sea super hot y asi pero bueno. Como muchos ya sabe tengo ideas bien radicales encuanto a la politica. y si la verdad me choca cuando la gente no se involucra con la politica, como en mi escuela que creen que eso no importa porque son artistas y todo se les resbala, ser artista y no saber de politica no te hace tocado por dios solote hace IGNORANTE, no saber nada de tu pais y hacer que no te importa porque esta muy cerrado como para admitir el matrionio gay o cosas asi no te ahce inteligente ni especial, te hace mas ignorante aun.

Dejare mi odio para despues :D escucho a M.I.A y por eso me pongo muy politica pero a la vez feliz amo a los politicos extremos, para mi extremismo es igual a amor por su pais, amo a iran, irak, amo a todo el medio oriente, amo a los paises que no se dejan consumir como venezuela, amo el espiritu de amor y libertad de Cuba pero odio a sus habitantes malagradecidos, si, se que ahora si me la van a rayar a los que le impporta la politica pero yo les digo quitense la venda de el capitalismo, el imperialismo se ha acabado

Cambio y fuera

{---- foto de cuando era bien emo y pintaba mis paredes

Sabado..

2009-03-14T13:28:00.000-07:00

Hoy estoy lista para el sabado mas aburrido de mi vida, no tengo nada que hacer y en verdad si tengo pero siempre me soreo, supongo que casi siempre me quejo de los que em sordean pero yo siempre sordeo a casi todos. Es qu no se el dia esta asi como para estar acostada viendo tv engordando 1 kilo por hora.
No tengo mi musica que grabe por lo cual escucho solo mis CDs si queridos lectores musica legal, llevo como 2 dias escuchando mi CD de Calle 13 porque los amo y me vale madres lo queme digan la musica en español suckea enormemente solo la musica urbana lo vale y no todos mas bien casi nadie, si me veo bien fresa imou pero soy bien urbana :D Aparte Calle 13 dice todo lo que piensa como va es decir lo que todos deveriamos hacer, nos ahorrariamos tantos problemas si todos fueramos reales como un ataque al corazon :D
En otros asuntos planeo no hacer nada hoy y dormirme temprano no se porque a lo mejor el clima me deprimo. Ayer fue nuestro aniversario corazon y se me olvido... bueno todo era un secreto hasta hace poco y ahora todos saben de ti. Bueno ya me etapa melosa me esta fastidiando, aparte creo que no atrae lectores.
Como me molesta de verdad que pueda escribir miles de notas sobre mi felicidad y la gente se empeña en hecharme en cara las cosas malas, Puedo escribir todas mis aventuras y aun asi solo me reprochan por no tener pelos en la maldita lengua y decir que son unos wannabes, es simple cuando a alguien le hecho flores jamas lo agradece cree que asi debe ser y cuando le hecho madres soy lo peor. Pero no me importa en verdad, si son mierda lo voy a escribir aqui, si son lindos tambien aunque jamas me lo agradezcan. Es que en verdad es tan ironico que todo el mundo me friege por lo que escribo y se crean que todo es para ellos, la gente que piensa que escribo sobre ellos es la que menos me pasa por la mente. Asi que wannabes gracias por leerme y rayarmela en msn y facebook mejor vengan a mi casa y como dije formence en la fila para criticarme

Besitosss
Eli

Cuentame tus cuentos chinos

2009-03-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

EL dia de hoy fue muy extraño por una parte todos amaron mis cupcakes por lo cual fui exageradamente feliz, pero segui pensando en todo lo de ayer como me supuse que lo haria, lo peor es que una persona muy cercana a mi esta a punto de colmarme la paciencia y todo por sus mentiras, creo que la base de cualquier tipo de relacion ( amorosa, amistosa, familiar, etc) es la confianza, y aparte de mitomana cree que los demas mienten al igual que esta persona, en fin por aquello de los haters que me llenan en inbox con respuestas a mi blog no volvere a poner nombres.
En verdad me huviera gustado vivir en los sesentas, no se se me hace tan divertido la gente simplemente no pensaba solo actuaba.
Pienso que ya me fastidie de quejarme por no tener nada facil, ya es suficiente a lo mejor por algo pasan las cosas, en cuanto a el amor de mi vida despues de mucho pensar y pensar y asi decidi que creo que siempre voy a estar con el o porlo menos se que mi alma esta comprometida por siempre con el, creo que no importa cuantos dias u horas sea ese para siempre porque eso es solo terrenal, creo que nuestros sentimientos son tan fuertes que no es simplemente terrenal
SI, en efecto mis queridos lectores haters acosadores de Facebook tengo sentimientos lindos hacia la gente tambien.

xoxo
Eli

En boca cerrada..

2009-03-12T20:31:00.000-07:00

No entran moscas... ¿Que quiere decir esto? que no puedo decir nada Hoy una amiga me dijo que me considerara como una artista, que cada cosa que decia era como una declaración publica, no se si sea cierto o no.
Porfin hable con Ahmed, me acaba de decir que se supone que tiene una enfermedad rara en el corazon y que no cree vivir mas de los 40, a lo cual me tomo de sorpresa en mi opinion esas son las cosas que se deben decir en el momento en que conoces a alguien. Porque si haces las matematicas y piensas demasiado como yo todo termina en un desastre emocional y terminas llorando haciendo cupcakes preguntandote como seria si por una vez en la vida tengo algo facil, no se como me cayo literalmente como un balde de agua fria senti muy raro. Despues me dedique a buscarlo en wikipedia ( la enciclopedia para todos) y me di cuenta que es my cierto todo lo que me dijo, solo no quiero pensar lo cual es super imposible en mi todos saben que lo que mas me cuesta es no pensar.

Dejare mis notas haters para otro dia por ahora me encuentro en un estado extraño

A los que me critican....

2009-03-11T22:53:00.001-07:00

Me gustaria tener una varita magica para convertirlos en rana
Me gusta dar lo que doy, me gusta ir donde voy, me gusta ser como soy, ven y criticame
Me gusta que por mi discutan y que se peleen! Me gusta que me aplaudan y que me abucheen!

Nada me podria describir mejor en estos instantes porque la gente que menos me importa es la que mas me critica la que jamas le escribo es la que cree que es dueña de los post como dice calle 13 no he dicho nombres pero a la proxima va con nombre y apellido

Hable con Ahmed y soy feliz (: bueno todavia no se como vaya a terminar eso

Ire a hornear tengo un largo dia por delante
Por cierto me preguntaron "¿Porque tanto afan en escribir cosas raras de la gente?" yo digo ¿Porque tanto afan de leerlas?

Al rato escribire la nota completa de lo que opino de esto

Perreando de nuevo

2009-03-11T11:37:00.000-07:00

Tengo ganas de ser una maldita perra y decirle a todos hasta de lo que se van a morir, pero porque hacerlo asi perderia a todos mis amigos, pero amigos? cuales no se si es porque nada puede ser perfecto pero siepre que en verdad necesito a alguien nadie esta ahi, todos me sordean, pero poco a poco me ha dejad de importar lo que verdaderamente me caga es que nunca pero jamas puedo tener nada facil. Hoy de nuevo me puse una florecita en el pelo simplemente me gusta yya estoy super relajada porque descubri unas cosas en el msn live que me ayudan con mi egocentrismo. Extraño demasiado a Ahmed y eso me desespera aveces quiesiera ser bien rar ay jugar a las carititas yugioh para que los demas me aceptara... NOTTTTTT
Para los yogioh maniacos:
crezcan! tienen minomo 18 años dejen de jugar a las pinches cartitas chingadass ok MADUREN dicen que el anime son coo las serei, NEW FOR YOU las series son actuadas por gente que si existe el anime no son serie son pinches dibujitos y me la pelan aunque no tenga todos los que ven eso ya estoy hasta la madre de no encajar porque no veo anime todos se pueden ir muy a la chingada con sus cartitas
1. Esas cosas NO existen
2. Ya tienen como 20 años ustedes
3. A nadie se me hace atractivo
4. A nadie impresionan
5. No son originales por mamar los dibujos japoneses
6. Soy una hater y queeeee

xoxo Gossip Girl!

Pre- clase de flash

2009-03-11T08:39:00.000-07:00

Hoy me dicen si me voy a terceras o no, la verdad nisiquiera me preocupa no se por lo que va a pasar si em dice que si, pues mis queridos amigos no estan interesados en ir a la graduacion, pero re preocupa por algunos planes que tenia que oviamente ya no se realizarian aunque sam me acaba de decir que nada de lo que creia era cierto lo cual me da un poco de no se sentimiento relajado. Todo sigue en orden aunque este en terceras
regresare a perrear despues
xoxo Eliii

Cocina Arabe & My Passion!

2009-03-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

Me gusta escuchar banditas que nadie conoce no se porque pero si no les gusta ya saben traigo mi actitud de "suck it, suck it hard" ya no me siento agobiada por anda, si es ovio que me quede en terceras y que falle pero bueno yo soy asi solo aprendo tocando fondo. Hoy fueron unos indigenas a la facu, la verdad no eran indigenas pero suena mas chido cuando digo que lo eran y les compre uno de esos zacates me costo 15 pesos y soy muy feliz de tenerlo, lo llame nigga como el cantante porque puedo y aveces me gusta ser naquidivertida.

Ya me acostumbre a mi cabello corto es practico y sensillo y a mucha gente le gusto asi que esta bien
Aprendere cocina japonesa el 21 demarzo por 700 pesos
Me voy ire a ser saludable al gimnasio luego regresare para mas reflexiones

bitcheando en computadoras ajenas

2009-03-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

Hoy estoy en la computadora de mi papa y no pudo escuchar musica cosa que realmente me molesta asi como me molesta que los tigres de la UANL, si el equipo de futbol sean tan idiotas y les valga pura chingada que la gente los apoye tanto me da asco que sean asi tan ingratos porque eso es lo que son una bola de imbeciles que no pueden pensar en los demas que se la pasan tirando weba para demoestrar a un equipo mediocre todos los fines de semana, pero como tiran weba de verdad es desesperante y tambien quiero decir que yo ya no los veo como un equipo de primera diviosn hasta juegan como un equipo de primera osea juegan a ser bien mierda, y para mierda ya tengo bastante en mi vida.

Cambio de look: no se como que tengo sentimientos encontrados al respecto, me gusta pero no me gusta, el fleco ese si no he aprendido a aceptarlo, pero la experiencia en si fue muy muy buena me masajearon super rico y asi y estuvo buena la platica con jose y al final pues el cabello crece, de todas maneras fue algo nuevo para mi ahora teno el cabello muyyy muyy corto.

Ayer si fui a la biblioteca y comi unos tamales muy ricos vaya que soy una chica atascada. No tengo nada mas que contar por hoy ais que me despido me encanta mi foto demuestra que era una ebria mala copa desde chiquita

besos lectores

xoxo Gossip Girl! NOTTTTT HAHAHAHAHA ya saben lo que pienso de eso

Dia ocupado y Wall-E

2009-03-07T07:53:00.000-08:00

Ayer vi Wall-E me gusto estaba re linda como se enamoraron los robotsitos y se mandaban toquesitos nada diferente a la vida humana en si. Hoy tengo muchas actividades planeadas la ams importante es mi cambio de imagen y he sufrido muchos en los ultimos 6 meses pero espero que ese sea el mas nice y que sea definitivo por lo menos por los proximos 6 meses. Aparte de eso ire a la biblioteca del museo de historia para buscar informacion hhaha me encanto yo jamas voy y me siento como en la epoca de las cavernas lo cual sucedio porque no tendre laptop en los proximos dias, pero aprovechare para tomar muchas fotos de la muchedumbre, paisajes, mi hermana y sobretodo mias con mi nuevo corte :D ovio tendra fleco porque me encantan los flecos, solo espero no terminar como la foto que puse poruqe esa es una peluca, lo que mas me gusta es que escribo re mal y la mayoria de las palabras no se ven bien, y aparte me da risa que en la foto salgo como que con dolor d cabeza, talvez salga con una amiga hoy quien sabe.
Me voy posteare en cuanto pueda pues no tendre laptop D:

Gente grosera & La flor en el pelo

2009-03-06T13:25:00.000-08:00

Como una hoja verde en el otoño, no necesito nada mas, el bote salvador que rescata un naufrago en el mar.

Hoy no se que paso planeaba tantas cosas pero nada paso. En la escuela tuve una discucion con una amiga por lo mas estupido. ¿Es tan malo tener principios? ¿Es tan malo creer en algo? Porque me caga tanto la gente que cree que no se puede creer en nada, que creer te exclaviza, creer es algo maravilloso y la gente cree que pensar que hay algo mas grande que el humano es para ignorantes, yo pienso sin tolerancia que estas personas son las ignorantes y ciegas.

Hoy pienso que estoy harta de depender de los demas, que en verdad estoy sola y nunca pense que el hecho de ser una persona que a siempre todo me fuera a pesar eventualmente, porque por primera vez necesite a alguien y nadie estuvo ahi. No soy una persona que espere nada a cambio, solo esperaba un poco de empatia.

Hoy traje todo el dia una flor en pelo y no se porque en verdad no lo se porque no soy nada atractiva, derrepente algunas personas me miraban asi como que checandome cosa de la cual no estoy acostumbrada haha que risa. El tipo del banco, el tipo de las nieves, y el tipo que hacia las nieves que nos pregunto a mi y a mi hermana que si nos habiamos perdido en el HEB, en verdad muchachas TIP: si se ven moderadamente bien nunca vayan a HEB. Tambien una señora loca se enojo porque mi hermana se abrocho los tenis y sbubio ligeramente el pie donde estaban als carnes frias y empezo a decir chingaderas yo de estupida dije "Ojala nunca me haga vieja y fea como esa señora" y ahi quedo total fuimos con mi mama que estaba con los chichos acosadores de las nieves, que porcierto uno de ellos nos miraba como si dijera "chicas e veo sexy con mi cofia" bueno estoy muy segura que eso quizo decir cuando nos pregunto si stabamos perdidas y eso porque se me ocurrio voltear a donde estaba porque el vato estaba pesando leche y se me hizo raro. En fin regresamos con mi mama a la nieve y la señora que previamente molestamos tuvo el nervio de ir a hacermela de pedo y ¿Saben que hize? no se porque corri con mi mama y le dije "Mamá una señora psicotica me esta siguiendo" y saben que me dijo la señora "Andale correle con tu mamá!" independienteente de que lo que dije estuvo mal lo que dijo ella estuvo peor tuve miedo literalmente TUVE MIEDO y me puse toda paranoica pues con la inseguridad ya no se sabeee, en fin sali corriendo de HEB y me quede en el coche ahora escribo esto y tomare una siesta, los quiero por leer mis aventuras y mas por leer cuando me quejo de todo.

Despues de una mañana de mierda tuve una tarde genial al rato no se que hare y finalmente miflor murio por el calor pñero luego tendre mas :D

Ultimo Post del Dia

2009-03-05T18:47:00.000-08:00

Estoy hara de que todos me recuerden lo patetica que soy, y hoy en verdad no fue mi dia nisiquiera me siento con el animo de rayarle la madre a nadie nisiquiera de criticar a las señoras que bailan regueton. Me duele la cabeza me va a explotar. Le falle a todos